Ramblings and thoughts  My journey began on Friday 18th April 2008.  I have flirted with this same 5 stone for years and years now. This time I am determined to keep it off  5 Stone lost  Okay - I'm back for the final 2 stone and proper RTM this time!! |
Now considering LLL as just cannot stick to abstinence at the moment. Don't want to put back all the weight but it is pointless paying every week for such poor results!!::"(
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I'm glad I'm not the only one lapsing as a refresher. It seems quite common but nevertheless is such a waste of time and money. Just seem to get so bad tempered on about the fifth day that I have to eat - relieves the symptoms immediately of course. Back on track today - onwards and downwards!! 
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Bit of a false start last week but today's another day.......\:D
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Still on track and feeling good already. That's the thing with LL it always makes me feel better straight away - physically and psychologically!!:D:D
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Have started the programme and eating OK although I did have an extra pack yesterday - Love the porridge still. Problems at home with extended family - hopefully they will be sorted soon. Onwards and downwards as they say...
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Back again after a six week bean feast - or anything feast really. Going to class tonight to face the dire consequences.
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Seems I have a duplicate blog here which won't go away!!!!!Annoyed I couldn't stick to RTM or even LLL while on hols so now I have to face the consequences. Back to abstinence on Monday for a few weeks and see if I fare any better on holiday at end of the month! After that it will be easier as not away until the end of September!!
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Annoyed I couldn't stick to RTM or even LLL while on hols so now I have to face the consequences. Back to abstinence on Monday for a few weeks and see if I fare any better on holiday at end of the month! After that it will be easier as not away until the end of September!!
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Off on the cruise at last and am already verging on gay abandon. I will reign myself in or I know I am setting myself up for a big fall and a huge weight gain. Lots of exercise and controlled eating and drinking is the order of the day. I shall return and pursue my goal for the next month although I have promised to indulge on one day when we go racing at Reading - we'll see!! I have had the wor...
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On my way to London to see Jersey Boys with 17 other Bowls Ladies - no it will be fun fun fun!!!!! Really looking forward to the Grace Kelly exhibition at the V&A tomorrow as well. Just have to monitor my eating and drinking very carefully. Last night I avoided the 'oh I feel tired so I'll just have a bite out the fridge to make me feel better' syndrome. Proud to have overcome that first hurdl...
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I'm off for my first RTM weigh in today. I feel I have put weight on - it's always the same with me - I just don't know how people manage to lose weight when they do RTM. If it continues like this then I'll have to go back to Abstinence for a while after my hols - it seems to be the only thing for me. 
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Talking of chicken - I decided to start a sort of RTM yesterday. So far I have had some chicken yesterday and today. I know the next two weeks are going to be difficult and I have always planned to eat during them. So here goes!! 
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The more I think about the future eating wise and the more I read I now realise that I just can't go back into food hell for leather. I've always known this but somehow dismissed it. This time it is becoming cyrstal clear to me that to remain anywhere near a normal size (which I feel I am now) I will need to temper my food and drink intake for ever. Gay abandon has always been my motto but of c...
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Another day - another struggle. sometimes it is so hard. Have had another hungry day today. Have had 5 packs three days in a row so now I have to level this all up before weigh in on Monday. I have realised I shan't be able to go to class for three weeks after this Monday so I am going to start RTM or LLL sometime after the Monday. I shall get suitable packs for RTM/LLL and decide what to do ove...
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At last a good weight loss - 4 pounds this week which takes me just 2 pounds under the 3 stone mark. Next week shoul ddo it - hoorah! Only 2 bars this week - one at class and one in car on way home so no bar bingeing this week - hopefully a good weight loss will ensue.\:D
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Oh dear - am in the s**t - dug up husband's carrot seeds to plant my cabbages. A case of gross misunderstanding (on my part I think). Never was much good at gardening - ha. Well my radishes are coming up - should be OK for when I start eating!! Too busy to think about overeatin gtoday which is a good thing but ache all over. Going off to play Jewel Quest on Facebook now - total addict! 
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Much better today. Had a long talk with Counsellor on Friday and she gave me the chance to talk my way through this wobbly patch. Now feeling strong again - onward and downward. Tks for helpful comments.^:)^
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Another day and still on the programme - just. Could have eaten yesterday and am still considereing Turkey on Sunday. My weight loss seems to have slowed right down (not unexpectedly as I have been bar bingeing and eating extra packs) but maybe it's just time to start RTM/LLL. Jury still out.
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Am seriously considering going on to RTM from Sunday. That way I could have some Turkey. I would still have a stone to lose but I could address this whilst on RTM! Pondering......
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i.5 pounds - expected! >:)
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i.5 pounds - expected! >:)
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Off shopping today to TRY and find an evening dress for hols. I have looked around for a while and apart from Granny clothes or chain store dresses (you walk in one door and someone walks in t'other with same thing on) I just can't find anything suitable. Was trying on some clothes in a dress shop the other day and the Manager told me off for wearing the wrong bra. - so I am going to get measured...
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Feeling crap! Really fed up. Weight loss has slowed right down - only 2 pounds again this week yet I am completely abstinent and drink liquid like a fish and have done plenty of exercise. Also couldn't stay at class as usual Counsellor not there and there were a lot of strange women there tonight in a very small room. I felt really claustrophobic. Have also felt really cold all day. Think I'm ...
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Still slogging away. Another weekend nearly conquered. Hopefully going racing at Newton Abbot today - lose some more pounds -ha ha! WI tomorrow - has been quite slow lately - would love a big loss to spur me on. Anyway 4 weeks to go until E (ating day). Onwards and downwards. \:D
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Yesterday was a wobbly day - I was so ravenous. I'd like to say it was the Zumba class I did the night before and it may well have been. I'l see if I get the same effect next time. I ended up having 6 packs instead of the four but hey ho better than the bolognese I was eyeing up. I can even this up before WI on Monday. I have also done loads of gardening and am covered in scratches although my f...
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Last night was the first Zumba night. Hope it wasn't the last. Great fun do Latin american dances in short bursts - no matter if you went wrong or didn't do it right. Went with Carol and Lyn from my LL class. Made me so hungry though!!! \:D
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Have survived yet another Saturday night out. Have balanced my packs so am at proper level for tomorrow night's weigh in. It seems to vary each week but does in fact average out at the requsite 3 pounds a week - therefore I expect a 2.5 pound loss tomorrow night. This is nearly two and a half stone. I think another stone will be the max I can lose before I start eating at end of April (ish). Hope...
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Well - I would recommend an iphone to anyone. Get your OH one as well and then try to work out all the aspects of itunes etc. If you are new to all this like me it will take you days and days. Food - what is that - no time. Too busy copying and burning cd's and updating contacts!!! Look like a bug eyed monster - must get out more!!! In fact went and bought myself a skirt (first for years) and a...
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Officially unobese tonight. 3.5 pounds lost - would have liked 4 but hey ho beggars and all that. Feeling much slimmer and people beginning to notice. Quite bored with it all now but only 6 weeks left to do - onwards and downwards.\:D
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Another exhausting weekend entertaining but we all had a good time. Another round of meals out to sufffer but I remained abstinent. Got really high on caffeine yesterday and had to go to bed for an hour or two. Also a lack of food (trying to balance out my Monday bar bingeing) made me feel very feek and weeble. One bar only tomorrow in class (how many times have I said this). Hoping for a good...
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Excited as writing this on new iPhone
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Have spent the day trying to either upgrade my phone to an iphone or buy a netbook - all to no avail.. All I really want is to be able to use email/Facebook/Net whilst away from home. I know with iphone I could use anywhere and that netbook would be limited to acessibility but think netbook would possibly be cheaper in the long run. My phone tariif would effectively be double and more whereas t...
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Lost 2 pounds. Thought it was more. Tired and cold and achy. Going to bed with hot water bottle.
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Another 4 pounds tonight. Very pleased I didn't fall off the wagon over weekend. Had to endure 4 days of others stuffing and boozing but managed it - hooray!! Half way there now - roll on April 20th and the mini cruise.
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Just worked out the cause of my great hunger yesterday - it was coming out of ketosis due to the 7 bars I binged on Monday night. Only had three packs Tuesday but five yesterday cus I felt so bad. How many times must I tell myself DO NOT GET THE BARS> Also have put some weight on - of course. Take it easy the rest of the week and balance it out. Not that easy to do as away for a long weekend but w...
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Lost three pounds which brings me to one and a half stone. I know it's a good weight loss but feel strangely deflated - I felt so much thinner - ha ha! Back to the old bar bingeing I'm afraid - just shows my latent greed waiting to jump out and grab me by the throat - wish it would - might stop me eating!!! Something to be addressed although the answer is always what was going on at the time?' St...
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The struggle last night was almost too much to bear. My longing for certain food was so strong - and I knew it was sat in the fridge (hubby's). I finally succeeded in overcoming the urge but what a test of will. I don't know how much longer I can go on. I am not even halfway yet so ages to go. I know I shall reap the benefits and will be so pleased with the final weight loss but it is so hard and...
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Another OK day looms ahead!! Stressful time at Pub Quiz last night - all far too serious. Take a break and get a life!!:-@
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Things OK today!
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Struggling - but so far so good.
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Yep - 4 pounds. Wish it was more but heigh ho 18 pounds in 5 weeks aint bad. Cutting down on bars this week to see if it makes a difference.
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I am feeling really down today. Everything is grey and gloom and I feel I could easily sink into depression. I will fight this and not let it happen. Not sure if the diet is to blame even if only in some small part. Have to get myself up and out - hopefully this will banish my mid winter blues.
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Feeling better today. Walked the dogs and dug the garden (well some of it) ready for Spring Time. Think I'm going to dedicate myself to veggie growing this summer - give me something to keep me busy. Only trouble is I'll have to fight the snails, slugs, rabbits, pigeons and seagulls. Oh yes and then there is all the aphids, caterpillars, ladybirds, mould and rust. And you think LL is tough - hu...
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Still puzzled as to why scales show no weight loss. Roll on Monday and weigh in. Must be an answer.
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Know I shouldn't weigh myself every day but I do. Scales not wavering at the moment. Don't understand.
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Feeling slim and energetic today. Made a big hole in my admin work and have kept off the bars so far this week - just one a day. May even tackle the housework tomorrow or is that a bridge too far - ha ha!=D>
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Disappointing weigh in last night. Just a half a pound - yes I know I know but nevertheless felt lighter and expected more as I have kept to plan. No more messing with bars this week - have chooped and sliced and frozen - just one a day is my goal. I must learn to conquer this - otherwise how else will I conquer my bad eating habits.This is one of my goal's this month. Another more exciting one is...
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Survived the weekend intact - can't wait to be weighed and get my bar!!! Just one - I don't know now - greedy side is coming out.....................
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Off to Butlin's Minehead for a 60's weekend. Have booked some nice restaurants outside the camp for the others - I will be with them but will have my packs. Was going to have bars but sadly my 'bar bingeing' got rid of those. Just as well really as they only make me hungrier. I wouldn't eat chocolate bars normally so why start now (well that's my reasoning anyway). Have just had porridge and ha...
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Okay today so far. Have a long weekend of avoiding drinking and eating ahead. It will also be very cold. I will find things to occupy me - have books, swimming cozzzie, walking shoes and packs - here goes!!:((
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It's cold outside but have just had a nice spicy chilli con carne to warm me up. Still OK but dreaming of the fudge bars I can have over the weekend. They are very moreish and I am trying to limit myself to one a day - have to wait til weekend though cus I ate three in one go t'other day. Hm it does seem I am better off without them. Thing is they are so convenient for travelling and eating out....
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Headachey today and had the odd twinge in the stomach. Maybe a slight virus or something - can't be anything I ate - ha! Maybe it's something I didn't eat!>:)
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Lost 3.5 pounds and really happy. Was wondering whether to do LLL but have decided to stay in full abstinence until 25th April at the earliest. Have a mini cruise that weekend and may decide to do LLL then. On the other hand I may not.:D
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Hi everyone - the sun is shining down here in Devon and it's time for a walk. Just made myself some chilli bites from the chilli con carne mix (add tabasco, stiff paste, nugget shapes and fry in non stick pan) delicious. Happy day!!
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Still hanging on but dreaming of steak and wine. Considering LLL but know it's not really the right thing for me yet! I can dream!~O)
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Feel sluggish and hungry. Just took the dogs out and feel a bit better. Off to watch telly for a bit then out for the rest of the day - easier that way.
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Midnight munchies - just porridge though! Dogs woke me barking and was ravenous.Back to bed now - perchance to dream!X(
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Haircut today - love it shorter but blow dry made me look 90. Soon be OK when I've mussed it up a bit. Still going - strong today but weak yesterday. My new strategy of cutting bars in slivers and freezing didn't work too well - still managed to down 4 in one sitting. There must be a way out of this - I have to train my body as it's an exercise I need for RTM and after. Will ask Counsellor at ...
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Good day so far. Been to Yoga in Dawlish. Teacher is excellent and really stretches your body. Could do with a little bit more relaxation time though - she only gives up about 5 minutes - I like about 20. Realise how unsupple I have become - must practise at home for maximum benefit. Bought 7 fudge bars last night, ate one in class and then spent time cutting the other 6 into tiny slivers and then...
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Another 3.5 making a total of 10 pounds in two weeks. Hooray! Had a few difficult moments mid week but hung on in there and glad I did. Onwards and downwards. I reckon we should mke this our slogan!!=D>
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3 am and am still awake. Was out last night at an Indian with husband and friends - drank soda water and coffee which was not decaff I'm sad to say so still wide awake. Have taken an aspirin and had some porridge to try and make me sleep. Have played Scrabulous and Wordscraper and Twirl on Facebook and have read til eyes crossed. There is a moral there somewhere.:((
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So far so good today now those evil bars are out of the way!!O:-)
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Wha hey or words to that effect. 6.5 pound loss this first week - never lost that much before - must be all that extra exercise. I know next week won't be nearly as much but as long as it keeps going down I'm really happy.:)):)):)) PS AND have you tried the new fudge bars - heaven. Also am going to try the mousse mixture - turns your shakes into mousse in 10 mins.::D
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Well I've managed a week and I'm feeling so much better. More energy, more alert and those aches and pains seem to have diminished. Bring it on!
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Just a little note to say that tonight I was hungry. Maybe it's the cold. Anyway I have survived intact - upwards and onwards. Have been watching my big fat diet show which is interesting and has reinforced my need to stay abstinent.
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Still going. Just wondering about Monday and if I can get to class. No matter ref packs as I have plenty just the weekly stimulus keeps me going. Let's see how bad the snow is!=D>
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Good day so far - have signed up for Yoga lessons in Dawlish and I might just get my old Yoga DVD's out later. Still haven't braved the aerobics bit - might wait til I've ;ost a bit of weight or find something different to do. Still doing bowls once or twice a week - perhaps could do more. Looking for something more cerebral todo as well - maybe a literary course.:))
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Feeling good being back on the programme. Total change of attitude already. Bring it on. Hey what about this new Chilli Con Carne - super or what. Anyone got any special recipes for it?
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Still guzzzling - waiting for that start after meeting Monday night! Bring it on!!!:D
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OK - here we go again. Never mind I shall repeat abstinence time and again if it makes me feel better - and it surely does. First class Monday 4th January 2010.O:-)
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The sun is shining and it's a lovely day here. My chocolate shake is going to taste much better than any Easter Egg. Remember - nothing on earth tastes as good as being slim feels!!!!
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Hooray 5 pounds down and 25 to go!!! Still not safe with a quantity of bars - have two weeks worth of food here as am at wedding next week. Inspiration - what if I froze them??? Then I couldn't eat them so easily!
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Still at it - weigh in tonight!! \:D Think I've lost a bit - watch this space.
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So far so good. It's day 5 and I am feeling fine. Weighing in tomorrow as the Refresher starts properly tomorrow.
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Thanks for all your support girls. Despite 4 day headache and the return of the dreaded lurgy (third time since Xmas) I am in fact buzzing. I feel so much better now than I did all the time I was stuffing my face. I feel energetic and strangely content. Must be the knowledge I am going to lose all this horrible fat fast!!!!
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Happy to be on Day 3 and all OK. Keep drinking the water!
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Well - here I am and back again. Started abstinence today and have 30 pounds to go!!!!! Off and running! \:D
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I don't know if I will ever be able to keep my weight stable. Mine has crept up and up and here I am thinking about doing abstinence again. It all seems so pointless. How many times have I been Here (loads and loads). It seems there is just NO answer for me!
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Lost 3 pounds - very pleased!!!
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Thanks for all your input girls - would highly recommend LLL. LLLite going well. Have to get weighed this evening but feel confident I've lost at least a couple of pounds. Finding it so much easier than abstinence as obviously you are allowed food. I feel it is good training for the future to plan healthy meals, actually have them and stick to the plan....I did first Tesco online shop - just ord...
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Here I am again. Have found a super new counsellor in Exeter who is very upbeat and professional. She recommended going onto LLLite. So here I am day 2 and feeling good. I managed a week or so of abstinence but was finding it difficult - quite punishing really. LLLite seems far more gentle. I realise weight loss won't be so fast but I feel I can stick to this more easily. Ultimate goal still...
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Well I haven't been on here for a while - that's because I've been failing miserably at Management. I have put on quite a few pounds since September and I am desperate to get rid of them again. Two holidays plus all the recent celebrations were just too much for me to handle but the time has come to make amends. So I started abstinence yesterday and still have a spring in my step today. I can ...
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Well - a bit more on track today. Feeling more positive and on top of things. I think boredom has a lot to do with my overeating so I am looking forward to being in Austria this week - as long as I can avoid all those lovely pastries, hot chocolate and glugwein. Am taking some packs and bars and will have at least one a day if not two. We'll see if it works.................
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Well - haven't been here for a while. Been on the travels to India (yes I was in Mumbai on that fatal night but am embarassed to say I saw nothing of the terrible atrocities except very empty streets. My heart goes out to those that suffered). Anyway I went to the Ayurvedic centre I normally frequent and Doctor Sunita was horrified. She said she never thought I would look so emaciated and I wasn...
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Feeling positive and happy this morning. Back at desired weight after a few hiccups. It's controlling the binge eating that is my major problem - working at it - just have to be strong and stop it - any which way I can. Looking forward to India tomorrrow and lots of nice veggie food - will come back healthy and below target!!!!!BTW - new group in Totnes a success. People are nice and friendl... Comments
Still struggling although weight more or less the same. Going to new LLC on Sunday - just to make contact and get weighed. Will then weigh in on Sunday 30th after a couple of veggie weeks away.
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Well miraculously I am there. I've reached my final target and all I have to do is stay there. I am on my way to tackling my eating binges and once these are conquered the world is my oyster. Roll on India and Ayurveda next week - I shall come back healthy and wise - if less wealthy!!
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Really struggling with RTM. Binge monster in full flood. Back on packs today and will see locum Monday. Don't really know what to do. Am going to India in 10 days or so and will be on veggie regime for two weeks at Ayurvedic Health Centre. Will then be away again soon after for a week in Austria. Will be able to do something pre and post India. Will probably do a mixture of abstinence and RT...
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Haven't done journal fo a while as I am still struggling a bit with the old binge eating. Had a bad evening last night. Just have to keep slogging away at the Gillian Riley approach so me neurals are re-trained - ha! So glad I have this site and the foodpacks to fall back on. Away for a week at Centerparcs in Longleat so maybe I can keep busy and not dwell on food.!! Taking lots of foodpacks an...
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Only just been able to bring myself to write about the terrible binge I had on Sunday. I just ate ALL DAY. Tried to reason as to why and can only think it was because I was stuck indoors on a very wet and grey day with an overactive 3 year old. Either that or just pure greed. Gillian Riley says to go with it, accept it and then choose what to do next time - either overeat and accept the conseq...
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Hey I'm OK today. Had bacon and egg for first time in 6 months today - really nice. Was going to have a foodpack day to make up for the extra meals I had yesterday but might do that tomorrow and/or Monday. Like the idea of one meal a day - but must keep at that for a while if I want to lose those extra 4 pounds. Not vital as I am at desired weight but would give some leeway. Feeling fine - long...
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Going to be a difficult day today as spending the day in Plymouth with friends - one person's birthday. Know there will be lots of eating and drinking to resist. Have prepared poppadum for one of the meals and will have protein/salad or veg for mainmeal. Sure I can do it AND enjoy myself. Missing alcohol less and less as time goes by. Have had one (not particularly enjoyable) glass of wine in ...
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Woke up at 2 am starving. Ridiculous really. Anyway - here I am at 3 am eating a poppadum (made from soup mix - originally for lunch today) and drinking decaff. Back up to bed in a mo to read Gilliant Riley's 'Eating Less'. No answer really - or is this the answer? 
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Sad because my binge tendencies are still very much in evidence. Had a really bad day yesterday ending in eating a very large quantity of nuts. Just have this 'never full up' and 'can't get satisfied' feeling along with 'feeling ravenous'. Need some serious help I think to avoid piling weight back on. Counsellor away this week so I will try again for a week of abstinence and then seek her ad... Comments
Am OK. Finding abstinence difficult and did eat a bit of protein last night but will slog away for the next week or two to try and lose a few pounds. All be worth it in the end!! Tools enabled me to work out that I ate because I was stressed. Didn't stop me eating but I know why. Next time will try alternative.
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Happy cus I only put on one pound whilst on holiday. Tried to avoid trigger foods and keep to RTM. Discoverd apples definitely one of my trigger foods - keep away from or use as part of a meal. Back on abstinence now for 3 weeks - have revised my target to 120 as I want to have half a stone to 'play with'.
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Back and Fat. Ate healthily as much as I could but couldn't stay totally with RTM. All the exercise of cycling made me weak and I ate to compensate although ate as healthily as poss. Get weighed tomorrow - started packs today for a couple of weeks of abstinence.
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Holiday today. I can do this!!!!
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Survived the birthday meal relatively intact. Biggest achievement chose not to drink alcohol - if I can do it on my birthday (easy peasy after all this time) then I can do it any time!! May have ate a little bit too much protein and probably cooked in ghee but not too bad and very delicious. Back on track today with RTM. Comments
Just got weighed and I'm one pound below target. Hooray!!!!!!! ) 
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Stil happy. Will I or won't I break the 9 stone barrier tonight? I have been dared to wear me leather trousers for my end of Developpers piccies - so here goes!!!!!!
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Still happy at weight loss. Still sitting on the fence ref RTM. Only foodpacks yesterday and today but roast chicken tomorrow - yeah. Foodpacks only Monday (weigh in day) and then RTM proper (as will be on holiday). There is no reason why I cannot stick to RTM whilst on hols. If I were to stray how would I feel when I came back. Rubbish!!! This means just protein and salad - I can do this!!
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Still happy and managing. Had some beef and lettuce yesterday - stupid chef put dressing on salad so had to wipe it off - soon got fed up with that and just had meat. OK - but really don't what all the fuss is about. Think I'll stick to shakes for a couple of days before the birthday onslaught starts on Sunday. Feeling more and more confident I can handle the eating and drinking pressures of t...
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Well - bit the bullet and started RTM proper today. Chicken and salad as I have already done more than three days on and off protein only. Tasted good and I feel OK although had to fight off old feelings of going back and picking just one bit more. I'm learning. Never ever pick is the maxim. The Diet Plate is brill for measuring just the right amount of protein - weighed it just to make sure. Di...
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Well - almost there - just 2 pounds to go which brings me to 8 stone 13 pounds and gives me leeway to ideally stay around there. I suppose another couple of pounds below that would then give me a ceiling of 9 stone which is probably best for me - a good solid boundary. I have taken in so much information on RTM that I am now totally confused. So what did I do - go and have a binge. At midnigh... Comments
Still a bit confused as to what to do with myself. On my scales I am at the desired weight but LL weighs 4 pounds heavier so therefore I have more to lose. Think I will suck it and see. Am going for a protein meal tonight - see how I get on!! PS On both sets of scales I am a healthy BMI - it's just that I wanted a few pounds to play with - so to speak!!
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A little sad that I have decided to come off abstinence and start RTM. I would have liked to have lost that final 5 pounds but my body just won't let me. Now is the time. I have had a chop today but will have fish tomorrow and see where I go from there. Will consult my LLC on Monday and see what she advises as I am soon off on holiday. If worse comes to the worse I shall come back and go on abs...
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Not feeling well at all. Have had ache in back which worries me and have a cold coming (raw throat). Husband cooked pork chops and chicken and my resolve just went. Had a chop and some chicken wings. So near to my target now. Don't hate myself but now don't know what to do!
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As I write I have toothache, my back aches and my hair is falling out but I'm still happy ) to have lost all this weight. These last few pounds are just being really stubborn - don't s'pose it has helped that I'm now in the habit of bingeing on my bars when I get them - an issue I must resolve. I don't think the binge monster ever goes away really. It's jut the taste and texture of something ...
) to have lost all this weight. These last few pounds are just being really stubborn - don't s'pose it has helped that I'm now in the habit of bingeing on my bars when I get them - an issue I must resolve. I don't think the binge monster ever goes away really. It's jut the taste and texture of something ... Comments
I am HAPPY. I've reached the magic 9 stone on my scales at home. I know it's a difference of 3 or 4 pounds to LL but it is a psychological barrier for me. I shall be weighing myself on these more often than LL as I try to maintain balance - I shall try to keep here or below. 2 more weeks of my pledge with others in group - then birthday meal and holiday. We had a pre-holiday meeting last nigh...
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I am so inspired by reading others' blogs. I have been doing a lot of thinking lately as I am soon going into RTM and am terrified. I loved drinking wine to relax on the weekend. I know now that I can't do this and should perhaps just drink when I go for a meal (one or two glasses). I will attempt to incorporte this into my new life. A friend who also had to have band removed has joined Overeat...
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Hit 9 stone on my scales this morning. Am delighted as anything under this will be a bonus. LL scales about 4 pounds heavier and I have 17 days to go. Hopefully will be under the 9 by the time I go to RTM. PS Oh yes will have lost 5 stone then!!!
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I always feel like writing 'Captain's Log'. ) Feel OK. Had to go to bed early last night as really hungry. Drank pint of flavoured water, had a bath and dozed in bed in front of TV while family went to pub for a takeaway!!!! NAsty weather today so must keep busy or I'll get that hungry feeling again!!
) Feel OK. Had to go to bed early last night as really hungry. Drank pint of flavoured water, had a bath and dozed in bed in front of TV while family went to pub for a takeaway!!!! NAsty weather today so must keep busy or I'll get that hungry feeling again!! Comments
=D> Feeling good - been busy all day - it sooooooooo helps me. What weather - so cold and windy and not much prospect of it getting better - roll on France/Goa.
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So weak all of a sudden - did a 3 mile walk with the grandchildren - a lot of it uphill, preceeded by a two mile walk (half of it uphill) with the dogs. Came home and ate several bars one after the other - feel really full now but know I needed the sustenance. Will make up for it rest of week. Also am very tired as couldn't sleep from about 3 am this morning. Going to drop granchildren home in ...
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) Hooray I'm there. Completely unexpectedly lost 4 pounds and reached my first target. Just another half a stone to give me some leeway - then on to RTM. I think I have chosen to try and stick to RTM whilst on holiday - make it healthy - why not after all this effort. Must not revert to the old eating and drinking me. What's the point. Time to change. Can't sleep so have come down for ... Comments
September and my favourite month - well it is my birthday month. I feel positive today after yesterday's negativity. It must be something about Sundays - I think I inherited the gloom from my husband who always hated Sundays before he retired (work next day). Must find something to do on Suns. Sometimes do flicks but there is a dearth of good movies at the mo - and anyway I'd want the popcorn -...
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Absolutely fed up. Sun didn't shine, nothing on at flicks, chilling but bloody starving. Read RTM book this morning which made me think about food and then have been bored. Tried walking, reading and coming on computer. Computer best as it keeps brain and hands busy. Had 4 packs but would kill for some bars etc. Never mind - keep in there - only 3 more weeks to go!!
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This month seems to have flown by in one respect and dragged in others. The brief sunny interlude we've had over the last couple of days has disappeared and we are back to the old standard - rain!! Never mind - nice dog walk and then off to flicks if there is anything decent on. Should the sun come out - or it should stop raining I am taking my husband to Canonteign Falls. What a fantastic walk...
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I find it so stressful having guests - especially when we have to go out for meals. I would love to say - no guests next year but unfortunately living by the sea - they all want to visit. I have managed very well - in fact I have done more exercise and have not wanted to binge or cheat as my mind has been distracted - not always in a positive way though I'm sorry to say. Husband keeps nagging m...
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Annoyed with myself for lots of reasons today. Ate too many bars yesterday (will I ever learn)' have to do the housework and hate it, feel very fuzzy and clumsy (probably as a result of too many bars yesterday)' had to wait in for a parcel and NEED to get out. Am going food shopping now (for impending guests) to avoid eating too much today - if that makes sense - ha!!!
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I have woken up to day with the feeling that I must be more positive in life. I do have a tendency to be a negative and I know this is a downer not only for myself but for others. Here goes!! By the way even though I am thinking positively why are my scales positively going up when I have stuck rigidly to the plan. Will be interesting to see what happens when I get weighed tomorrow?? Night o... Comments
Got the miseries and the hungries - think I'll go to bed for a while with a book maybe. 
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Last night was difficult. Went our for meal with son and husband. Not so much the food but them.. The more they drank the sillier they got - KILL. Just wanted to go home. Next time - leave them to own devices - stay home til it's my turn to eat - not long now. I will learn to eat and drink in a controlled way and not eat and drink myself into oblivion like them
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Continuing feeling good. Making plans for the future. Eating OK at the moment. Surfeit of coffee making me jittery - otherwise A OK! Comments
I'm feeling OK. Weight coming off again and now fitting into some of my smallest clothes. Only problem is now I am smaller all the usual haunts M&S, Dash, Wallis seem to have rubbish clothes. Perhaps it's the time of year with all the grotty sales on. I look forward to buying some nice winter clothes although I have enough clothes from previous lives and sizes to start my own shop! Off ... Comments
Well lost the one pound and three more as well - just another stone or so to go. Have agreed with my remaining two classmates that we will go into RTM together - when we have all lost one stone more. That brings me to my birthday - just right for me!! Comments
) ) ) Well I made it through the night - just on my first shake of the day, it's not raining and have bowls this afternoon to keep me busy.. Off to Crealy Park with granchildren tomorrow - that'll keep me occupied until I get weighed tomorrow night. Hope to have lost the one pound I put on last week and more. Still can't decide ref RTM but might do another week or so - see what happens to... Comments
Today I feel miserable and depressed and I want to eat. I recognise this as being a symptom of my feelings and so will not give in - but I really could eat now. This weather and the total stress I have been under for the last few weeks with constant visitors and babysitting are beginning to take its toll - just another couple of weeks of it and it'll all be over - then I can go on holiday a... Comments
Been busy busy and back in Ketosis. Not very nice whilst out and trying to get back in - hunger pangs, weakness, dizziness and irritability - all the things I'd forgotten about - but soon over. Hopefully will have lost a few pounds by Monday and be back on track. 
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I'm happy today. Not hungry and won at bowls. Still a bit bad tempered but all my guests have gone, husband away so an early night with a good book - yep!! I put on a pound last night having had my splurge but I see it has gone again this morning. Got 4 bars and ate 4 bars - never mind will adjust accordingly. Not many more weeks to go!!
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Well I finally took the bull by the horns and decided to do something positive. I have been feeling so rough mentally and physically and longing for some proper food so I planned to have a meal when we went out en famille last night. I planned what I would have (fish and salad and a glass of wine) and had it. As I was prepared mentally for it, it just felt right and has satisfied all my craving...
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Help - any of you experienced ll people. I am suffering a severe sense of humour bypass at the moment. Everybody and everything is driving me mad. I have been on the programme since April 17th and am just wondering if I am suffering a severe lack of something -'food?'. Seriously I really do feel anti social at the mo. I am nearly at goal and wondering whether I should start RTMDon't really...
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\:D Think there is a bug going round - feeling heady and tight chested and coughing somewhat. Not really incapacitating and am hoping weather good enough to bowl this afternoon. Awaiting the wild influx of visitors over the next 3 weeks - keeping the kids amused is one thing but entertaining the adults when you are not eating and drinking is a challenge. It can and will be done!!
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>:) >:) Another 4 pounds tonight and I am delighted. I really fancied some chicken tonight when I went out and saw it laying on the side. Soon!!!!!! I had to get 4 bars tonight to even up the numbers of packs (of course I didn't but that's how I reasoned it.) Anyway I was due two food packs so had two bars an didn't eat the other two - getting there. I reasoned I have to be weighed by nurse tom...
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Disgustingly lazy day. Managed to mess up putting photos on site but did it in the end - all a question of cropping. Had a coffee/choc hot shake for breakfast/Strawberry and F of F cookie mid morning/Thai Chilli and Tabasco crisps mid afternoon and will have another shake shortly. Feeling good -all my 12's fit now and I do look OK. Scales say I must lose another stone or so to get to target so... Comments
It's still b****y raining here but feeling positive today. I am feeling quite slender now even though I have another 19 pounds to go. Reckon I will have lost another 3 pounds by Monday which leaves just over a stone. Should take another 5 or 6 weeks and then comes the real challenges of RTM. I am running out of clothes to wear but feel hesitant to buy any in case a) I get too thin for them too... Comments
Sick last night - don't know why. Only brought up phlegm but haven't felt too well since.Stomach sore and body aches. 
amp; Bowls this afternoon so trying to get housework done before visitors tonight - all too much!!
amp; Bowls this afternoon so trying to get housework done before visitors tonight - all too much!! Comments
I nearly wrote 31st November at the top - what a miserable, grismal day. I have had such a stressful depressing day caused by trying to fill in an Indian Visa Application form online (don't even go there) and then other various pieces of paperwork then on way to Post Office realise I haven't addressed or even sealed down another parcel and then guess what - Post Office closed!!!!!!AND all the tim...
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Happy to have won at bowls and to have achieved almost finishing booking a trip to Goa. Enjoy arranging things. Just have to arrange visas now - have the photos - just fill out the forms and send off the money and photos. Hungry for sweet stuff still. Never had a really sweet tooth but now completely off the soups and have to have shakes or biscuit with water flavourings all the time - yum. ... Comments
>- Strange month - never ending but time flies - very contradictory. Lost another 2 pounds last night - that's after 4 days as we have changed day. Another 19 pounds to go and determined to stay the course. Three of us have joined another three so different people with different perspectives who have all done the same journey - more interesting and instructive. It becomes clearer and clearer t... Comments
Only got the one bar and ate it at class. Still have a craving for them!! Oh well have to go without. Think I must have got into the habit - must get out of it now!! 
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I am so busy I don't think my feet have touched the ground for days. Just did mammoth clear up after kids and now we are all going dog walking before swimming, golf etc. Bigger two go home tonight whilst 3 year old stays for a day or two - he's the hardest work!!
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Good start - turned up to LL and no counsellor. Locum forgot us. Anyway she turned up 30 mins late after phone call. Panicking as left grandchildren with son - not altogether sure about it although he is father to two of them!!!! Anyway - weighed and lost 4 pounds but have felt so ill all day. Couldn't quite do the one bar so got 4 and yes - ate 4 so I really do know now ONE ONE ONE ONE - got ...
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>- Busy day today - three grandchildren to amuse. We are doing the 'Round Robin' Totnes to Dartmouth (cruise), Dartmouth to Kingswear (Ferry), Kingswear to Paignton (Steam Train), Paignton to to Totnes (Open topped bus). Lunch in Dartmouth and away we go. LL weigh in tonight - can't stay to class as I have no-one to look after kids today!! Only snack for tea - easy!! Bar for me - the only one ... Comments
Getting fed up now - still sticking to it but the thought of another couple of months seems interminable. Know I have done well so far and well on way to target but would kill for some proper food and a drink. I know this is the root of all my evil and I must examine this and I know that my binge dragon is still there. Will work towards conquering these evils .................but its s... Comments
I am absolutely exhausted - 4 grandchildren for the weekend/aerobics/bike/dog walking and bowls. Had a headache all afternoon and couldn't wait to get home. Have to iron bedding and then having an early night - eating OK although still playing catch up for bar bingeing last week. One bar only this week will be a good idea!! Comments
Done it again - couldn't get just one bar - scoffed the lot. Child coming out here - I could learn to tame this one just like the dogs. Will work on this next week. Comments
Feeling OK. Managed to even out my binge of earlier in week. Have decided to have two bars this week as recommended by a kind member. One as a treat after class and one for emergencies - but that's it - then if I do binge I can't do too much damage. Weight loss seems to have slowed a bit and I shall be interested to see what I weigh at class tonight. Had great time at Dartington last night ... Comments
Got damaged at bowls today. Right through to last round and then beaten by one = Grr! Never mind - can't win them all. Stayed with 3 packs today and some lollies - forgotten what a lifesaver they can be. Off to bed as v tired. A lovely day of housework looms tomorrow - now this is when I get really bored!!! Never mind - off to see Sandi Toksvig at Dartington on Weds - that'll cheer me up. So... Comments
I'm OK. Managed to cut down to three packs yesterday to make up for terrible binge day before. Just three packs now for rest of week - won't do me any harm as must be carrying an awful lot of excess goodness in my body - ha ha. Off to Dartmouth to do a 3 mile round walk through Little Dartmouth - should be fun - pub lunch after (well for the others - Thai crisps for me!!) Comments
Well I don't know - it's a new day. How to stop this binge mode which is of course one aspect of my re-occurring downfall. a) Don't get bars; b) keep away from sweet stuff c) Use aversion techniques - get out of house/go into gym/bath/bed etc/ d) talk to counsellor and group on Thurs Comments
Just ate all my bars again today. The binge monster is still there - won't ever go. No bars next week - you must come clean and not do it again. Now have to go through the week with only three meals each day. Better stick to liquid all week I think except when have to be out - then only crisps - no sweet biscuity things! Comments
Have just returned from class and couldn't resist a bar even though I wasn't really hungry. My weight loss has slowed somewhat - one pound last week, 2 pounds this week but I did have some good weight losses and I'm sure next week will show a bigger loss. Feel a little despondent which is silly really. Saw a group of newies waiting for first class and they were astounded I'd lost 3 stone since... Comments
Well it's raining and don't know what to do. Could do housework (yuk), read a book (better) or get out of the house ((best) but it's raining dear henry, dear henry, dear henry!!!! 
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This is for me to look at and remember when I am have finished RTM:There's no point going back to old eating habits - old habits = old body!"! You have to change no matter how painful it is. I didn't in the past and ended up back where I started - not this time!!! Also I think having a limit over which you go straight back to abstinence for a week or two might be helpful otherwise the pounds ju...
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Did it again - had two extra bars - this devil that makes me put on weight in the real world is still there!!
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] ] Am Ok and well into 'my journey'. Lost only one pound this week which is frustrating as I have kept to the programme - well almost. Still only had permitted foods and the weekly quantity but binged on bars one day and had to make up for it rest of week. For some reason - metabolic I expect - I am sure this affected weight loss. I am positive that next week I will have a good weight loss... Comments
Off to Living coasts with grandson Oliver. Not so hungry today - hooray
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I am so hungry again today. I really thought about eating some meat but instead ate an extra food pack!! I don't know how much longer I can go on
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Can't stop eating my bars - gone through week's supply almost. Feel terrible. Everything seems on top of me today. I have been too busy playing bowls and am now all behind!!! Feel like I'm stuck in the mud - must get on with it. Went to bed early - slept and slept. Now no energy. Think I'll go and read for half and hour and then tackle some housework before MORE bowls. thanks heavens I've... Comments
Fed up with bowls - palying too much - must have a rest!!! 
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Over half way and feling good!!
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Tried on smaller clothes - lots fit - whole new wardrobe - hooray!! Been to the zoo - lots of exercise pushing grandson around in pushchair! \:D
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Generally fed up!! Feeling tired and lethargic and a bit claustrophobic. Don't want to do anything - just want to eat!! Ideally should just get on with humdrum things - may go and have some legal crisps and a cuppa. Electrician coming in a minute - just the struggle of explaining and I don't think he's up to the job - we'll see!! 8-<
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What me in an article on gastric bands - never!! Ha Ha. In Daily Mirror today ref my experience with gastric band. Did mention LighterLife but it got cut! Never mind the only way is up!!
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How dull can you be. Checked mobile at side of bed - put back without looking - dropped into food pack and knocked to floor. Wonderful coffee/chocolate stain in carpet and non-functioning mobile. Dull or what!!!
Lost a meal and involved lots of cleaning - one bit of the carpet leads to another. Silver lining - new phone on way!!
Lost a meal and involved lots of cleaning - one bit of the carpet leads to another. Silver lining - new phone on way!!
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It's going to be a good day. Am learning to deal with my emotional eating by doing other things - must keep on recognising this with my hot thoughts!!! Comments
Feeling good - lost another 3 pounds!! ) Nearly half way there and feeling strong. I can do it and I will do it. I will also make sure I do RTM and stick to it faithfully so I can conquer my weight problem once and for all!!"!!!!
) Nearly half way there and feeling strong. I can do it and I will do it. I will also make sure I do RTM and stick to it faithfully so I can conquer my weight problem once and for all!!"!!!! Comments
Won another bowls comp today and still losing weight so am very happy today. Weather was glorious. Puppies naughty at their first day of school - they are now grounded for life!! Son too panicked to enter building for an interview for job - makes me sad and cross!
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Good day today - went out to Noss Mayo with husband - what a wonderful place. Had lunch - well he did - I had crisps (mushroom soup ones) - but when I have reached my goal I am going there and having a wonderful ploughmans just like he did - or something similar. It was filled with lovely fruit and veg and cheese portions weren't too big - yummy!!! Comments
I just feel so irritable ALL THE TIME at the moment. Have to do something about it but don't know what. Would normally have sunk in to a bottle of wine and a take away but of course this calls for different measures - am going to ask on the forum! Comments
Am feeling very annoyed with myself. Lost a game of bowls which I should have won easily. Not my usual team - one on holiday - sub not the same!! Am comforting myself with a strawberry flavoured coffee - yum! Comments
Weighed in and lost another 4 pounds this week so am very happy. This makes 2 stone now - only another 3 to go!! Halfway in first fourteen weeks so getting there slowly but surely. I think the realisation that I'm going to have to change my real eating habits to keep the weight off is beginning to hit and bringing a lot of apprehension with it. This bit is a doddle in comparison - and this is... Comments
I've lost another 3 pounds today. For me it will probably keep being 3 pounds per week. Exercise makes no difference to my weight loss at the moment but it certainly makes me feel better and tones me up. I feel better tonight and am sat here sipping a chocolate flavoured coffee - yum! \:D \:D
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Well - I responded to an e-mail about gastric bands yesterday as in a previous life I was fitted with one but unfortunately it didn't suit me and I had to have it taken out. Before I knew it I was giving an interview over the phone to a Daily Mail reporter and ther was a photographer at the door. Thank good ness for LL and thatI have already lost 2 of the 5 stone I gained after having band remov...
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Just logging that I started LL on Friday 18th April 2008. =D>
I am trying to display my ticker weight loss on this site but can't manage it. I have it on facebook but can't get it to here -help!
It's OK after a lot of trial and error I have done it. Now I am trying to find my way around the site - I don't understand the differnce between blogs and chats and forums - well!!!!??? Can I start a jou...
I am trying to display my ticker weight loss on this site but can't manage it. I have it on facebook but can't get it to here -help!
It's OK after a lot of trial and error I have done it. Now I am trying to find my way around the site - I don't understand the differnce between blogs and chats and forums - well!!!!??? Can I start a jou...
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Somehow turned a corner yesterday - hunger not so bad. I really think there is a lot to be said for not using the water flavourings. They're off my list that's for sure!! \:D This is something I must address when I return to eating real food - 'something sweet equals overeat' will be my motto!
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Resting just isn't so good - it makes me hungry - Ate loads of legal lollies trying to fill hunger. Didn't manage to keep to three meals - had to have the bar. Had a bar for breakfast today as I need energy for bowls comp this morning.
I feel so much better today although I ache like mad. Did some housework and went for nice walk with pups - now plan to have restful day playing on computer,readi...
I feel so much better today although I ache like mad. Did some housework and went for nice walk with pups - now plan to have restful day playing on computer,readi...
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I felt so hungry yesterday and this morning - even dizzy! I had to eat an extra bar yesterday as I was so weak. Have been looking after grandson and doing aerobics - lots of running around. Made up for it today!!
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Joined an exercise class last week - found it very tough but went today and seemed easier. The only problem is lack of energy - I struggle a bit with the dance routines but I know the reason is lack of calories and just keep going
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This morning I just mixed up vanilla food pack in container with a little liquid and then microwaved for 2.45 mins - turned out just like a chewy muffin - was good. Tomorrow I will mix in some Fruits of the Forest and then time after maybe some cold coffee. Possibilities seem endless and so enjoyable.
I have yesterday tried the poppadum and today tried the chocolate muffin. I think I need some r...
I have yesterday tried the poppadum and today tried the chocolate muffin. I think I need some r...
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I think the lemon biscuits (made from bar) are not a good idea for me. I have been ravenous ever since eating them mid morning. Think I will give these a miss in future.
in future. Comments