Good luck with it!Hi, I'm Maz and i'm 35 years old with 1 boyfriend and 1 dog. I once lost 6 stone on slimming world, but that was over 7 years ago, and i put it all (and more) on again. I am starting LL with a weight of 20 stone 0.5lbs (only one person on the scales at a time please!!)  I was on Slimming world immediately before joining LL, and i lost 1 stone 5.5lbs. So i guess my original starting weight was 21 stone 6lbs. This is my journey - enjoy!  July 2010 - Since writing the above, i have turned 37, but still have the boyfriend and dog. Unfortunatly i have gained back three stone, so i have decided to start again with the packs. I wonder what it will be like second time around... target for foundation Development target total target Foundation (start 27th August 2008) Week 1 = 12lbs  - stuff of dreams / Week 2 = 4lbs  - got my hopes up too highWeek 3 = 3lbs - still got my hopes up too high / Week 4 = 6lbs - I rock!Week 5 = 3lbs  - TOTM / Week 6 = 1lb  - really bloatedWeek 7 = 4lbs / Week 8 = 7lbs - now thats what i call weight lossWeek 9 = 2lbs - TOTM so relieved i lost at all / Week 10 = 1lb - So unfairWeek 11 = 4lbs  - back in the game / Week 12 = 3lbs  - a loss is a lossWeek 13 = holiday - no lapses though / Week 14 = 8lbs  - target exceeded for foundation Foundation total = 58lbs Development (start 4th December 2008) Week 1 = 6lbs - Gobsmacked! / Week 2 = 2lbs - Good resultWeek 3 = 3lbs  - Cool! / Week 4 = 4lbs - End of year goal smashedWeek 5 = 6lbs - Another fab loss / Week 6 = 4lbs - Going strongWeek 7 = 0lbs - No lapsing!! / Week 8 = 2lbs - So disappointedWeek 9 = 3lbs - Expected more / Week 10 = 2lbs - It's all slowing downWeek 11 = 1lb  - Oh, come on! / Week 12 = 5lbs - Back on trackWeek 13 = 3lbs - Steady amount / Week 14 = 0lbs - Feel tired so Week 15 = 3lbs - That's more like it / Week 16 = 5lbs  - FantasticWeek 17 = 2lbs - Happy / Week 18 = 1lb - Good under circumstances / Week 19 = 5lbs - No longer obese!! / Week 20 = 2lbs - Thats not badWeek 21 = 2lbs - Good / Week 22 = 2lbs - Hoped for moreWeek 23 = Holiday - still abstinent / Week 24 = 5lbs - OK for two weeks Week 25 = 4lbs - Chuffed to bits / Week 26 = 2lbs - Met dev target - yay!Development total = 74lbs Route To Management (start 5th June 2009) Week 1 = 1lb - - relieved i lost at allWeek 2 = 0lb  - its falling apart, but why?Week 3 = 1lb - OK i guessWeek 4 = 0lb - I give upWeek 5 = + 5lbs  - better than i deservedRTM total so far = + 3lbs Star for every stone lost (plus and a half prior to LL) |
Its just like old times! Not to say that there haven't been moments where i wondered why was i doing this again? The devil on my shoulder hasn't gone away, and i still wonder whether i have enough will power to last the 7 weeks until my holiday, and then get back on it after my holiday. I am boosted by the fact that i am firmly in Ketosis now (love seeing the sticks turn pink).
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Its been an interesting year! I have been binging and starving with ever decreasing severity. I knew i had to come back to LL or i would end up back being over 21 stone again. I weighed myself on Friday (just before starting the packs again) and i was 13 and half stone. Over 3 stone heavier than my lowest weight. i hate having to buy clothes in bigger sizes (as i gave all my old bigger clothe...
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I knew this would happen. People think that abstinence is hard, but RTM is murder! I had a further two serious binges last Sunday and Monday, but have since got back in the saddle and have learnt some very important lessons about triggers and planning for the future. Bearing in mind that i had three very serious binges, i only put on 5lbs on the scales this week, which is am extremely relieved ...
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Well, i lost nothing this week, and that was the final straw in a bad few weeks, which lead to the worst lapse in history!
I started the day off well. My usual porridge and berries, with a Peach as a snack later, followed by a nice cottage cheese salad and WW fromage frais. A satsuma and couple of small plums later in the day, and all is groovy. Then after my 6pm weigh in, the fun started!
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I started the day off well. My usual porridge and berries, with a Peach as a snack later, followed by a nice cottage cheese salad and WW fromage frais. A satsuma and couple of small plums later in the day, and all is groovy. Then after my 6pm weigh in, the fun started!
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So, i lost 1lb this week, which is the good news! I should be happy about it, so why did i come home, have twice as much salad as i should have done, and then picked at OH's leftovers! What is up with me? Why can't i settle and be happy with the new me? Honestly, i am so annoyed with my childish sulking behavior! I know tomorrow i will see the sunny side of things, but it doesn't help that i ...
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I am so angry and disilluioned with this diet. I was strict as can be this week, and according to their scales i had stayed the same (actually, i could see that i had gained 300g). According to my scales i am up at least 2lbs today too, so thats just fabulous
Having looked at other people's blogs, they seem to lose weight in RTM, and i seem to just be gaining it. I am eating well within the gu...
Having looked at other people's blogs, they seem to lose weight in RTM, and i seem to just be gaining it. I am eating well within the gu...
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Well, i lost 1lb this week, but that was through pure cheating. I got weighed in my lightest clothes, and didn't drink much fluids. I got on the scales this morning, and i have put on 2lbs! Thats it, i have to give up weighing myself daily, as the way that my body is working on RTM is so different to Abstinence. I have to let go of my obsessions and trust that my body knows to do and will sort ...
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Well, i am on day four of RTM and it has been mostly positive. On Friday night i had my first meal of Chicken and Cottage cheese. I did the chicken for too long in the oven, so it was stringy. But the cottage cheese was lovely. I never used to like the stuff before, so it was a relief that i really look forward to having it. Towards the end of the meal i could feel myself getting full, but it...
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I lost 2lbs this week, which means i hit my development target exactly, which i am really happy about. It was a bit of a weird weigh in, as there was no RTM class and my LLC didn't seem to know what was going on. We have developers, refreshers, LLL'ers and RTM'ers all coming through the doors at once. I hope it settles down next week as it felt more like a train station than a LL meeting.
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I am up and down like a roller coaster this week. I will be having my first meal on Friday next week, and the countdown to that seems really difficult at times. During the day i am fine, and almost feel like i will miss abstinence when i start RTM, but the evenings are a different story. In the evenings i really feel the urge to lapse now, and struggle to fill the time before the next food pack...
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I lost 4lbs this week, which means i am now 150lbs, which is half of my heaviest ever weight. I just can't believe it! I also got my after pictures today. I have a total of 4 sets of pictures now, and i'll post them all when i've got my end of RTM photos done.
Today i am really happy! Its my last week of abstinence, and i am still losing weight. See, if it can happen to me, it can happen to ...
Today i am really happy! Its my last week of abstinence, and i am still losing weight. See, if it can happen to me, it can happen to ...
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Well, after missing last week's weigh in, i lost 5lbs. I should be happy with that, but my weight has really fluctuated recently and its difficult to know whats going on with my body. My period is two weeks overdue, so it looks like that is starting to be affected now. At least i only have 15 days left until i start RTM.
I went away for half a week in the Lake District, and the other half in Y...
I went away for half a week in the Lake District, and the other half in Y...
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I lost 2lbs this week, but i don't know why i feel so sad about it all. It was a very emotional group last night, and i think i am feeling the after effects of that. I only have 3 more weeks on this time round of foundation, Then i am off to RTM, but i am concerned that i won't lose any more weight in RTM and i have a stone and a half left to lose still. I know things will be better next week, ...
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Well, another good weight loss (2lbs). At the start of my journey, i was asked to write a letter to myself, and 33 weeks later, i opened it and read it to my group. It totally threw me! I had forgotten how unhappy and miserable i was back then. Lots of things i wanted for the future i had already acheived (like being able to run), and i cried more than once whilst reading it. I have come so f...
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This last week the hunger has been enormous. I have even cried over it. Stupid i know. This week i have lost 2lbs, which i am happy about. I don't mind losing 2lbs when i only have a couple of stone to lose, rather than 10 stone to lose. Today i feel okay though, and the hunger isn't as bad. I hope the rest of my journey towards RTM is smoother than the last couple of weeks. I have a couple...
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I lost 5lbs this week, which means my BMI is (for the first time in my adult life) below 30. I am no longer obese, and i will never be again. It hasn't quite sunken in yet, and i suspect it will take a while to get used to it. I so look forward to the day when i can say that i am not overweight, that i am in the ideal weight range. For now, i am just an overweight woman, no different to the av...
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Think i have overdone the caffeine. I am feeling really spaced today, so this blog will be short. Lost 1lb this week, but i am happy about it, as i really felt like i was bloated anyway. 1 more pound to go until i am oficially not obese anymore!
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This morning i did it!!!! I ran 5.38 Kilometres (3.34 miles). I finally broke the 5K barrier! This is another great milestone in my weight loss journey. I did it in 37 minutes and 33 seconds. I hope to break 5K in under 30 minutes, but thats a couple of months away yet.
Exercise doesn't necessarily make you feel phsyically wonderful (as my legs ache right now), but the mental aspects, of knowi...
Exercise doesn't necessarily make you feel phsyically wonderful (as my legs ache right now), but the mental aspects, of knowi...
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Well, i lost 2lbs this week, but at the weight i am now, i am just grateful for a loss. I only have 3lbs to go until i am no longer obese. I really can't believe it! I have to give myself immense credit for how well i have done. 217 days without one lapse is amazing. Although i feel a bit scared about my eventual return to the world of food, i know i can always look back on this time and take...
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Went to weigh in tonight and lost 5lbs. Really pleased with that. I only have another 5lbs to go until my BMI gets below the "Obese" marker. I cannot believe how well i have done. My life is changing so much, and i like myself much more than i did. It also helps that i have booked my dream holiday this week. I said that i would go back to the theme parks in Florida when i have lost my weight...
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I went for a 2.4 mile jog this morning. That just isn't me! I remember a few months ago reading on here about women who had taken up running and i remember thinking to myself that i would never be able to do that, ever!
Now, here i am, nearly 7 and half stone lighter, and i am out there pounding the pavement at 6am. How did i get here? The changes happened so quickly (but at times, not quickl...
Now, here i am, nearly 7 and half stone lighter, and i am out there pounding the pavement at 6am. How did i get here? The changes happened so quickly (but at times, not quickl...
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I struggled last week, with not losing any weight, but in a way, it helped me to come to terms with the new me. I am smaller than i was before, and if there is a week where i don't lose weight, it isn't as much of a big deal as it would have been when i weighed 7 stone more. This week i did lose 3lbs and am happy with that. I still want to lose weight quickly, who doesn't, but because i am star...
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I am pleased with the week's weight loss of 3lbs, but i do feel that i am now putting in a lot of work for 3lbs a week. I do two lots of circuit training a week, one or two running sessions a week, and horse riding every other week. It is really starting to be hard work, burning off the calories. Not that i don't enjoy it, as i do like my fitter self, but i am in a bit of a grump tonight (cause...
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5lbs lost this week! Yippee! And thats with a weigh in a day early. My new weigh in day is Tuesdays, as i have joined a new group. all of whom are like a breath of fresh air. Its great.
I think what contributed to this week's great loss was the giving up of tabasco sauce and the exercise finally kicking in. I will be happy now if i can keep a 3lb average going for a while.
Apart from that, ...
I think what contributed to this week's great loss was the giving up of tabasco sauce and the exercise finally kicking in. I will be happy now if i can keep a 3lb average going for a while.
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Well, i lost 1lbs in the weigh in last night. I am really trying to come to terms with the fact that my weight losses over the last month have halved. I am hoping and praying that its just because of the increase in the amont of exercise i am doing, and my body will catch up. I think that the copious amounts of Tabasco sauce i am having is not good, as it contains vinegar, which i think is a so...
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Well, i had yet another disappointing weigh in. 2lbs loss this week, making 7lbs in the last 4 weeks, which is awful. I am really starting to ramp up the exercise now, as i think its the only way i can get good numbers on the scales again. I don't feel able to talk to my LLC about how i feel as she recently made a snide comment about how miserable i always am and how i'm always disappointed at ...
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Well, i went to the holiday show in earl's court on Friday - didn't find any good holidays, but at least got some exercise walking around (especially as OH got earl's court and olympia mixed up)
On Saturday i went shopping in Oxford street (so major walking done that day), and then we stayed with OH's friends in Surrey.
On Sunday we did Bluewater (even more exercise) then came home to find that th...
On Saturday i went shopping in Oxford street (so major walking done that day), and then we stayed with OH's friends in Surrey.
On Sunday we did Bluewater (even more exercise) then came home to find that th...
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I lost 3lbs this week, which is okay, but i had hoped for more, considering i have only lost 2lbs in the last two weeks. Is it grinding to a halt? It really does seem so. I have still got 4 stone to lose, so i really can't deal with small losses every week. I feel really negative about it all right now, and part of me wonders if i should give in and binge. I know i won't, but the temptation is...
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Would you believe that this has been the third day in a row that i have had a BM? I am in shock. I think that my body is finally starting to co-operate with me. Hopefully that will show on the scales on Wednesday (crossing fingers).
I went to help out my LLC today, as she was having a coffee "open" morning. They put loads of leaflets about but no-one turned up. I felt so bad for her. Thats th...
I went to help out my LLC today, as she was having a coffee "open" morning. They put loads of leaflets about but no-one turned up. I felt so bad for her. Thats th...
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After i updated my blog yesterday, i decided to go out and buy my favourite top from M&S in a size 16. Each time i think i am just about ready to drop a size, i buy the same top in the lower size. I now have this top in 24, 22, 20, 18 and now 16. While i was in there, i was looking at some skirts in the sale. I don't know what possessed me, but i took a size 16 and a size 14 in the changin...
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Can't believe, that after losing nothing last week, i lost only 2lbs this week. I feel scared that this is the most i will lose a week from now on. When i told that to my OH, he said that its not so bad if i lose 2lbs a week, but i don't want to keep going until Christmas before i can eat again, its just too long. It would mean that i would not have one holiday this year where i could just eat ...
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I have had a pain three times now, and i am worried its gall stones. Its about where my waistband is at the front, and its like a cramp. It goes after a couple of minutes. I wonder if its because i am having too much tabasco sauce and my body doesn't like it. I am keeping tabs on it to see if it happens only when i have tabasco sauce. If it is, then i will gladly cut back on the stuff, as its...
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Well, i stayed the same this week. Technically i lost 0.2kgs, but they don't count anything under a 1lb, so there you go.
I was really okay with it when i got weighed, but today i feel a bit down about it. I am also getting worried as the psyllium husks have appeared to stop working, and i am constipated again. I feel my body is trying to work against me at the moment, despite all my efforts. I...
I was really okay with it when i got weighed, but today i feel a bit down about it. I am also getting worried as the psyllium husks have appeared to stop working, and i am constipated again. I feel my body is trying to work against me at the moment, despite all my efforts. I...
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I spoke to the first person (outside of my group and you guys) who has done lighterlife before. She had not completed management and put weight back on. She confirmed what i'd always suspected, that it is harder when you suddenly are faced with the world of food again, and that the management programme is vitally important to sucess. I really enjoyed the talk with her, and it makes me even more...
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My average weight loss is increasing now, and i am losing more in development, than i did in foundation. I am not sure if this is just temporary, or if it is going to continue. If it does continue, then i could see myself starting RTM at the end of April. That seems so close! I still worry about the thought of being in the world of food again. I enjoy not having to make choices about what to ...
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I have been a naughty girl. I haven't updated my blog in almost a week. I have an excuse though, as i am full of the dreaded flu.
I feel a bit paranoid about the weigh in tonight. I am worried that i will put weight on. I have started with the psyllium husks again, as i have been suffering with the usual problems, but worry that because of the husks and the fact that its is a low weight loss ...
I feel a bit paranoid about the weigh in tonight. I am worried that i will put weight on. I have started with the psyllium husks again, as i have been suffering with the usual problems, but worry that because of the husks and the fact that its is a low weight loss ...
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Can't believe that i doubted this diet. I have lost 6lbs this week.
I have been away on business for the last 3 days and maybe the stress of it all has had a positive effect, but i am totally shell shocked by my great weight loss. I got weighed last night and i still can't believe it.
Although i have been in development for 5 weeks, last night was my first developers class (as no one turns up in ...
I have been away on business for the last 3 days and maybe the stress of it all has had a positive effect, but i am totally shell shocked by my great weight loss. I got weighed last night and i still can't believe it.
Although i have been in development for 5 weeks, last night was my first developers class (as no one turns up in ...
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I am going through the usual "this is too good to be true, and will stop working soon" phase. I am coming close to my previous weight loss low, and i worry that i will never get down to a size 14, let alone a size 12, which would be a dream come true.
I am starting to think about food more and more. I am still not close to lapsing, but i worry about my train of thought.
I saw a good friend today...
I am starting to think about food more and more. I am still not close to lapsing, but i worry about my train of thought.
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I am starting to worry a bit about my tabasco sauce consumption. I am using a whole bottle on roughly 3 soups. It is getting ridiculous, and shows that i still have issues with food.
I went round a friend's house for new years eve and had a lovely comment from one person saying that i was disappearing in front of their eyes. Normally i don't take compliments well, but i was boosted by this one, ...
I went round a friend's house for new years eve and had a lovely comment from one person saying that i was disappearing in front of their eyes. Normally i don't take compliments well, but i was boosted by this one, ...
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I am so chuffed that i lost 4lbs this week. I needed to lose 1lb to reach my end of year goal of 5 stone. Now i weigh 14 stone 11lbs. The last time i saw that on a scale must have been nearly 7 years ago. I think i have about 1 more stone to go until i enter new weight loss territory! I've said it before, and i will say it again (and again, and again)...... I LOVE THIS DIET!
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Well, i did pretty well with it all this xmas. I cooked for my OH and parents on xmas day (we did have a laugh). I then went to OH's parents from xmas night until today. I was worried how the abstinence would go down with his family, but everyone pretty much ignored the fact that i wasn't eating, for which i am very grateful for. As i felt a little uncomfortable making my soups and shakes in f...
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I have definately swapped the food addiction for shopping addiction. I can feel the rush when i find a bargain! Save me before i can't even afford to buy any foodpacks.
Do you know what i love about this diet? I love that i can forget about food, that i don't care about it anymore. That i can smell something and want it, but not feel compelled to have it. To be honest, there is a part of me th...
Do you know what i love about this diet? I love that i can forget about food, that i don't care about it anymore. That i can smell something and want it, but not feel compelled to have it. To be honest, there is a part of me th...
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I look at the days on my blog and can't believe i am writing day 115. I have to check to see that it is the correctly numbered day, as they are going so fast now. I think back to those first few weeks and how slowly they went. Its no wonder that some people give up in the first weeks, but it is such a shame, because now it is just second nature to me. I am so thankful that i am not finding thi...
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Well, i have been away on business for three days, and not even close to lapsing at any time. We went out to lovely restaurants, and i enjoyed my sparkling water and coffee. I also managed to book a hotel with a pool, so i got up at 6.30am both mornings and did 50 lengths, followed by a lovely 10 minute session in the steam room. I am so good at this diet now, and i love it, as i never feel dep...
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Thanks for all your supportive comments on my blog last night, i really appreciated it.
Things are on the up today. I managed to get a couple of worrying issues resolved, and i went for an early weigh in today, and lost 2lbs. That's 8lbs in two weeks, which is great for me!
I fly to Glasgow tomorrow and won't be back until Friday evening, so i will catch up on the site then. I love flying now, as...
Things are on the up today. I managed to get a couple of worrying issues resolved, and i went for an early weigh in today, and lost 2lbs. That's 8lbs in two weeks, which is great for me!
I fly to Glasgow tomorrow and won't be back until Friday evening, so i will catch up on the site then. I love flying now, as...
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I had a dreadful row with OH tonight. I just wanted so much to order a kebab and drink half a bottle of whisky, just to take away the pain of feeling so unloved. I couldn't do it, but instead of feeling strong, i just felt even more miserable. I miss my comfort, and i really need it so much right now.
I feel like its all starting to get on top of me. In addition to the stress at work, i feel so...
I feel like its all starting to get on top of me. In addition to the stress at work, i feel so...
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I am like a woman posessed! I really should not be spending money on myself at this time of year, but i just can't help it. I resisted some trousers in the sale today though.
I helped my OH with one of his xmas gifts to me (a new coat in size 18, which is really snug now, but not for long). I also bought him his xmas present today (a sat nav), so that's another ticked off the list.
It's time to t...
I helped my OH with one of his xmas gifts to me (a new coat in size 18, which is really snug now, but not for long). I also bought him his xmas present today (a sat nav), so that's another ticked off the list.
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Today i am starting to see how much better i am looking. I looked down at my body while sitting on the sofa, and for the first time in as long as i could remember, i didn't feel repelled by it. Yes,i still have an extensive belly, and my boobs are rather Dolly Parton-esque, but i can see the new shape emerging.
Apart from the body image thing, today was a real stress-filled one. Too much work ...
Apart from the body image thing, today was a real stress-filled one. Too much work ...
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I am really being naughty and not updating my blog very often. I have got into such a routine now that i feel that i don't really have much to say on a day to day basis.
Tonight was another weigh in (still no developer class, and probably won't be any until the new year now, just pop ins). I lost a staggering 6lbs this week! That means i lost a stone in three weeks. I could not be happier. I...
Tonight was another weigh in (still no developer class, and probably won't be any until the new year now, just pop ins). I lost a staggering 6lbs this week! That means i lost a stone in three weeks. I could not be happier. I...
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I am such a stroppy mare today.
I snapped at OH for one of his usual 'habits', which i normally have a tolerance for. This time i threw a huge tantrum! Sometimes i just don't know why we are still together. He shows no affection towards me, and i so need to feel loved. Ho hum!
We went to Ikea today, and bought a load of stuff we don't really need. I do get a buzz out of shopping though. I prom...
I snapped at OH for one of his usual 'habits', which i normally have a tolerance for. This time i threw a huge tantrum! Sometimes i just don't know why we are still together. He shows no affection towards me, and i so need to feel loved. Ho hum!
We went to Ikea today, and bought a load of stuff we don't really need. I do get a buzz out of shopping though. I prom...
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Here i am, sitting in my brand new size 18 jeans (okay, breathing in and out is an optional extra) and i can't believe i have reached day 100. I have not lapsed EVER! Not even to lick my fingers when cooking my OH's food. I am totally shocked and amazed at my own will power. I still have so far to go, but to be sitting here in size 18 jeans feels like a milestone of immense proportions.
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I am still confused about my size. Sometimes i feel really slim, but most of the time i still feel really fat. I am constantly reminding myself of how great i have done so far, but it always seems to be followed by the thought that i still have a long way to go. I know i can do it, but i can't help feeling worried about it.
Apart from that, things are pretty much steady. It looks like i might h...
Apart from that, things are pretty much steady. It looks like i might h...
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Well, i survived a two day business trip to Glasgow without a lapse. I am so good at this.
I had my weigh in tonight, and i lost 8lbs in the last two weeks. Another good result!
I was looking forward to my first development meeting, but when i got there, my LLC said that everyone had already been and picked up their packs and left. No one wanted to stay as it was too cold! I must say i was a b...
I had my weigh in tonight, and i lost 8lbs in the last two weeks. Another good result!
I was looking forward to my first development meeting, but when i got there, my LLC said that everyone had already been and picked up their packs and left. No one wanted to stay as it was too cold! I must say i was a b...
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I struggled so much today to try and get four foodpacks done, but as i am writing this, i am on the second full foodpack. I really hope that this doesn't affect my weight loss this week.
I went out today to the Sandringham Christmas Craft fair. It was lovely, and there were so many great things to see, but i didn't buy anything. I am really going to struggle to get my Christmas shopping done at ...
I went out today to the Sandringham Christmas Craft fair. It was lovely, and there were so many great things to see, but i didn't buy anything. I am really going to struggle to get my Christmas shopping done at ...
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I really haven't done much today. Out of guilt i got my OH to play Wii tennis and Wii bowling. Then i went on the Wii fit for half an hour. It's amazing how much i Wii these days (and i don't even drink that much water, ha ha).
I had a wander around the shops, but i have been spending so much on myself lately, i am starting to feel really guilty. I haven't bought one Christmas present yet. I d...
I had a wander around the shops, but i have been spending so much on myself lately, i am starting to feel really guilty. I haven't bought one Christmas present yet. I d...
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Well, i am back from my little holiday in Lancashire. Actually it was a bit dull. Again i am reminded of how food is so much part of anyones social life. As i wasn't eating, there were no exciting hunts for somewhere interesting to eat. All i had to look forward to was a coffee to go with my bar! I suppose the November weather didn't help either, as i didn't really feel like trekking round th...
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I don't know what was up with me on Friday. It was the last day at work before i had a week off, so you think i would have been de-mob happy. Unfortunately i felt really low. It didn't help that the weather was too bad to go for the planned lunchtime walk, and i suppose the lack of exercise was playing on my mind (amongst other things).
I was still struggling with constipation. Actually, i am...
I was still struggling with constipation. Actually, i am...
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As M&S and Debenhams had offers on, i felt the urge to try on some trousers on Thursday. I really shouldn't do it, as it always ends in disappointment.
As i am so short i have trouble finding trousers or jeans in short sizes that are cheap. I did end up buying two bras and a top, so it wasn't a toally wasted expedition. I also bought a Wii play, which has the additional controller, so my O...
As i am so short i have trouble finding trousers or jeans in short sizes that are cheap. I did end up buying two bras and a top, so it wasn't a toally wasted expedition. I also bought a Wii play, which has the additional controller, so my O...
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Well, its been yet another busy day. I went with a work friend for another walk. 3.7 miles and part of that was up a steep hill. It only took us 1hr 10 minutes, so we are improving. My boss did comment on my very red face when i got back, which put me off a bit, as thats part of what i hate about exercising.
At the weigh in tonight i lost 3lbs. I am okay with that, but would have liked more. ...
At the weigh in tonight i lost 3lbs. I am okay with that, but would have liked more. ...
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Boy its been a busy day. As OH's parents were visiting overnight, i got up at 5.45am to finish the housework. Did my day at work and then i popped to Lloyds to get my BP and pulse done. I got home and spent the evening entertaining the in-laws!
Its the first time that i have had the opportunity to talk to them since i joined the diet. They were very curious about it, but not at all judgemental,...
Its the first time that i have had the opportunity to talk to them since i joined the diet. They were very curious about it, but not at all judgemental,...
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My goodness! I think today was the first time when the amount of exercise i have done has exceeded the calories in the 4 foodpacks!
I went with a couple of girls today for a brisk walk (including some wicked hills). It took us just over an hour to do 3.5 miles! I worked out that i burned over 280 calories doing that.
My OHs parents are visiting, and the house is a mess, so as soon as i got home...
I went with a couple of girls today for a brisk walk (including some wicked hills). It took us just over an hour to do 3.5 miles! I worked out that i burned over 280 calories doing that.
My OHs parents are visiting, and the house is a mess, so as soon as i got home...
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I went out for a night at my friend's local pub for a game a singstar with about a dozen people. First they all sat down for a meal (i sat there and had my sparkling water). The women i had just met asked me about the diet, and i did my usual enthusing about it. They started off admiring me, saying how disciplined i was by sitting there and not having anything. They then asked what the diet in...
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I didn't post a blog last night, as i was just too upset. I had a big fallout with OH yesterday. I have told him loads of times that i will be abstinent until end of May/early June next year. He wanted to book his holiday time at work and asked me when we were likely to need the two weeks off. I said that it would be the last two weeks in June, and he really moaned, saying that it was a waste ...
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Phew! I lost 4lbs this week. I would have loved more, to even out the bad losses for the last two weeks, but i am happy with that. Now i really do have to concerntrate on getting more exercise, as i don't want to go through that trauma next month!
Got a few comments at work again about how much i am shrinking, so that was good too, but i am still struggling to say thanks, instead of brushing off...
Got a few comments at work again about how much i am shrinking, so that was good too, but i am still struggling to say thanks, instead of brushing off...
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I just can't seem to shake the fear that i won't lose much weight tomorrow. What if i lose 2lb or 1lb or nothing or gain? I have to say that i think that would be the end of the road for me if that happened. How can i not lose weight on 500 calories a day?
The closer that the weigh in gets, the more anxious i get. I am getting butterflies just thinking of it now. I barely managed to pick mys...
The closer that the weigh in gets, the more anxious i get. I am getting butterflies just thinking of it now. I barely managed to pick mys...
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Can't believe that it is day 75 already. I remember thinking at day 25 that it would be great to be at this point!
Had some fabulous news from someone i used to work with. Not going to say anything yet, just wanted to note it in my blog.
The constipation i had over the weekend seems to be sorting itself out. I think i get the same issue every weekend, how weird!!
I was trying to work out today how...
Had some fabulous news from someone i used to work with. Not going to say anything yet, just wanted to note it in my blog.
The constipation i had over the weekend seems to be sorting itself out. I think i get the same issue every weekend, how weird!!
I was trying to work out today how...
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I don't know how i am going to get through this winter when i am in Ketosis. I am so frigging cold !!!
As my OH does not have golf/marathon/triathlon/other excuses, we decided to crack the back of the housework today. This is the first time i can remember when he has actually done housework for more than 30 minutes. We started at 10am this morning. He started on the kitchen (which is still not ...
As my OH does not have golf/marathon/triathlon/other excuses, we decided to crack the back of the housework today. This is the first time i can remember when he has actually done housework for more than 30 minutes. We started at 10am this morning. He started on the kitchen (which is still not ...
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I decided that i needed a good clearout of my wardrobe. I went through every item of clothing, trying each piece on to check if it was too big, or if i could still wear it (took over 2 hours). It was really disappointing to find out that a lot of the clothes that i classed as 26 to 28 still fitted.
To add insult to injury, i went clothes shopping today and could not find anything in a size 22 t...
To add insult to injury, i went clothes shopping today and could not find anything in a size 22 t...
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God work can be sooooo boring.
Thank god i have foodpacks and Psyllium husks to look forward to throughout the day
Well, i managed my four packs and over 3 litres of water. just got to get cracking on that exercise thing! Well i did get some exercise polishing my OH's trophy (no that is not another word for a sexual act. Would you lot get your minds out of the gutter, honestly!)
This morni...
Thank god i have foodpacks and Psyllium husks to look forward to throughout the day
Well, i managed my four packs and over 3 litres of water. just got to get cracking on that exercise thing! Well i did get some exercise polishing my OH's trophy (no that is not another word for a sexual act. Would you lot get your minds out of the gutter, honestly!)
This morni...
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It clicked with me this afternoon, while i was looking at myself in the full length mirror in the toilets at work, I am size 22. Who gives a rats arse if i only lost a pound this week, i have dropped 3 dress sizes in as many months. It really put things into perspective for me. Even if i don't lose any more (which is highly doubtful) i have not been this size in years, so i have still done bril...
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I lost 1lb this week. Thats a measly total of 3lbs in 2 weeks. I feel so disheartened. Its so unfair, as i have NEVER lapsed, not even to lick my fingers!
LLC was trying to get me to see the positive side, but i just want to get the depression out of my system in my own time, rather than put on a happy face and pretend that i am happy with the crap loss. I know tomorrow i will put things in per...
LLC was trying to get me to see the positive side, but i just want to get the depression out of my system in my own time, rather than put on a happy face and pretend that i am happy with the crap loss. I know tomorrow i will put things in per...
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Well, after checking in several different shops, i can safely say that i am a size 22 now. I am totally amazed that i could drop 2-3 dress sizes in 9 weeks! I was absolutely desperate for some work trousers, so i popped into Sainsburys and picked up a couple of nice pairs for £15 each!
Also had to pick up some dog food from "Pets at home" and thought i would get a 15kg bag instead of the norma...
Also had to pick up some dog food from "Pets at home" and thought i would get a 15kg bag instead of the norma...
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Well, i did it again. I dug in my thumb, and pulled out a turd! Today i wore some trousers that i have been able to get into for the first time in three years. Sadly, fashion has moved on so rapidly that these trousers did look completely ridiculous! I had comments ranging from "clown pants" to "pajamas" from my work colleagues (wondering if murder can be justified if its in work time!). I d...
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I just can't seem to motivate myself on Sundays! Even my blog is half-hearted!
Dug another box from under the bed and pulled out loads of clothes (most of which are too big for me already). Looks like i will have to buy some more clothes!
I have a singstar night at a friends local pub in two weeks, so i might treat myself to something new for that event!
Its my 7 year anniversary today, and i onl...
Dug another box from under the bed and pulled out loads of clothes (most of which are too big for me already). Looks like i will have to buy some more clothes!
I have a singstar night at a friends local pub in two weeks, so i might treat myself to something new for that event!
Its my 7 year anniversary today, and i onl...
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Wow! It doesn't seem like yesterday when i was starting this diet, and now i am two thirds through foundation.
This diet has brought its own unique challenges, but i have never been on a diet before when i have had this much determination and certainty. I feel so empowered by this diet, and i am really enjoying the break from food. That sounds so weird but it is true. I got to the stage where...
This diet has brought its own unique challenges, but i have never been on a diet before when i have had this much determination and certainty. I feel so empowered by this diet, and i am really enjoying the break from food. That sounds so weird but it is true. I got to the stage where...
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I have been really big for so long that i took the lack of clothing choices for granted.
After work today, i decided to do a bit of window shopping in M&S. Now i am size 22 there are more shops that i can visit. i started looking around M&S and almost had a panic attack! There is just too much choice. I am worried that i won't know how to dress when i lose my weight. In the past clothe...
After work today, i decided to do a bit of window shopping in M&S. Now i am size 22 there are more shops that i can visit. i started looking around M&S and almost had a panic attack! There is just too much choice. I am worried that i won't know how to dress when i lose my weight. In the past clothe...
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I received and unexpected, and wonderful gift from my friend Petal today. She read my blog last night about a bath and got Allison to pass on her wonderful gifts and card today. I was very touched.
As you know, when a LL'er looses weight, there are those out there that want to show their support with gifts, but sometimes i could be a cream cake, or alcohol, which completely misses the point of th...
As you know, when a LL'er looses weight, there are those out there that want to show their support with gifts, but sometimes i could be a cream cake, or alcohol, which completely misses the point of th...
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I am so chilled out right now. As i am getting up earlier in the morning to walk the dog, i just don't have time for a shower, so i decided on evening baths instead. Boy, i had forgotten how great a good long soak in the bath is.
I lost 2lbs this week, which is a miracle considering its TOTM. I really need to focus on doing more exercise so i can get some good results on the scales next week. ...
I lost 2lbs this week, which is a miracle considering its TOTM. I really need to focus on doing more exercise so i can get some good results on the scales next week. ...
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I hate to keep doing negative blog entries, but i guess its TOTM week so there is no avoiding it.
I am feeling very angry and tearful. I am trying to read the posts on this site and i hear my OH swearing and using the "c" word downstairs in the kitchen. He is attempting to make himself Fajitas from the "old el paso" kit, and he has stupidly added the salsa to the meat in the pan! My god, the man...
I am feeling very angry and tearful. I am trying to read the posts on this site and i hear my OH swearing and using the "c" word downstairs in the kitchen. He is attempting to make himself Fajitas from the "old el paso" kit, and he has stupidly added the salsa to the meat in the pan! My god, the man...
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I had lunch with my friend today. It's her 40th birthday in January, and she is not sure if we should go to New York for it or not. She has gained a little weight in the last few months, so she feels quite self-concious. She said that, if she can't shift the weight by her birthday, that she will feel guilty for enjoying the food in New York, while i am still in abstinence. However, she feels t...
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I have absolutely nothing fabulous or interesting to say today, as it rained, so i could not find the get up and go to get up and go!!
As my time of the month approaches, i am fighting those naughty fake hunger thoughts (picture me with a whip and chair, fighting off a vicious pasta dish)!
Going to beddy-byes now!!
As my time of the month approaches, i am fighting those naughty fake hunger thoughts (picture me with a whip and chair, fighting off a vicious pasta dish)!
Going to beddy-byes now!!
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I am not a good person to be around at the moment! Just came on here from having a major shout at OH as i am sick of always cleaning up the kitchen after he is eating. It's bad enough that i don't have the food, but that i have to clean up his spills? Unacceptable!
I didn't post yesterday as i was too exhausted (mentally and phsyically). We bought a new TV and spent over an hour trying to squee...
I didn't post yesterday as i was too exhausted (mentally and phsyically). We bought a new TV and spent over an hour trying to squee...
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What was i thinking? There was only one clean pair of trousers that fitted and i wore them today. They fitted me round the waist, but balloned out round the hips, then went on to taper narrowly at the ankles. I looked like the love child of Coco the clown and MC Hammer!!!
Now thinking of ritual burning of said trousers.
Apart from that, the day was long and boring.
OH has vowed to give up alco...
Now thinking of ritual burning of said trousers.
Apart from that, the day was long and boring.
OH has vowed to give up alco...
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I was off ill today, but my Cystitis seems to be improving, now the Anti-Biotics have kicked in.
I had a great weigh in tonight. Lost 7lbs. Its amazing to think that i have lost half a stone in one week!
For the first time in a few weeks, all four of our group were in attendance. Two lost 1lb and one lost 2lbs. Felt a bit bad about my loss, as they were quite down about their losses.
My loss come...
I had a great weigh in tonight. Lost 7lbs. Its amazing to think that i have lost half a stone in one week!
For the first time in a few weeks, all four of our group were in attendance. Two lost 1lb and one lost 2lbs. Felt a bit bad about my loss, as they were quite down about their losses.
My loss come...
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I went home at lunchtime yesterday because of bad Cystitis pain. I thought i was fine today, but then again at lunchtime the pain came back. I went to my local NHS walk-in clinic, and they confirmed it was a kidney infection, so i am on anti-biotics for the next 3 days. In addition to this, i have taken some cranberry capsules. I hope this won't affect my weigh in tomorrow, but if it does, i h...
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Well, I came back from Amsterdam yesterday, but was too exhausted to even eat a foodpack, let alone do my blog!
I ended up only having two foodpacks yesterday, and i won't even mention how little water i had. Oh foolish me, because that has led to more constipation and even Cystitis! Why do i do it to myself.
At least i can say that i faced (and won) my biggest challenge to date. Amsterdam was lov...
I ended up only having two foodpacks yesterday, and i won't even mention how little water i had. Oh foolish me, because that has led to more constipation and even Cystitis! Why do i do it to myself.
At least i can say that i faced (and won) my biggest challenge to date. Amsterdam was lov...
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Well, thank goodness my hotel has free internet access and nice Apple Mac PC's to use. If anyone is travelling to Amsterdam i recommend the hotel CitizenM. The rooms are space age and its really cheap!
I have renamed the city "Hamsterdam" as i think this place is a shrine to food! My goodness, i have never seen so many fast food places in my life! I came here twice before but i don't remember i...
I have renamed the city "Hamsterdam" as i think this place is a shrine to food! My goodness, i have never seen so many fast food places in my life! I came here twice before but i don't remember i...
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Well, i am amazed to be writing this blog on day 50 of LL. What a rollercoaster so far!
Truth be told, i am a little stressed tonight Tomorrow we fly to Amsterdam and i always get quite stressed when travelling with my OH. He is like a giddy 5 year old and totally irresponsible, and i am mega alert and organised, so he just runs around the airport while i have to do the queueing! I would much r...
Truth be told, i am a little stressed tonight Tomorrow we fly to Amsterdam and i always get quite stressed when travelling with my OH. He is like a giddy 5 year old and totally irresponsible, and i am mega alert and organised, so he just runs around the airport while i have to do the queueing! I would much r...
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So, i lost 4lbs this week, which is what i was expecting, but i guess with the piddling 1lb loss last week, i had hoped for a little miracle this week (considering the exercise).
It was just me and the SL this week in the group session, and we spent most of the time talking about her 6 out of 7 days of severe lapsing. When the LLC went into the next room, she was saying that she really doesn't wan...
It was just me and the SL this week in the group session, and we spent most of the time talking about her 6 out of 7 days of severe lapsing. When the LLC went into the next room, she was saying that she really doesn't wan...
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Well, tonight i went for an 8 mile bike ride. My OH is training for a marathon, so i cycled alongside him. This was good as the pace was not too strenious. With this amount of exercise, i surely must lose a good amount this week, shouldn't i?
I am still feeling more hungry than normal, and i held a spoonful of my OH's dinner to my open mouth, just to feel what it was like to be on the brink of e...
I am still feeling more hungry than normal, and i held a spoonful of my OH's dinner to my open mouth, just to feel what it was like to be on the brink of e...
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Today was the first day that several people had commented on my weight loss. I have had an odd comment here or there recently, but i was wearing my new top today (two sizes smaller than when i started) and people were saying how much it is starting to show. I do not feel at ease with people paying me compliments, as i have never been able to take compliments very well. Most people would be thri...
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Well, i did it! I got on my bike today and went for a 15 mile cycle ride. My goodness i felt sore all over afterwards, and god knows how sore i am going to feel for the next two days, but i did it. I also coped quite well with the insecure thoughts i have about being seen on a bike at my size. The weather was perfect and my OH was very supportive and did not zoom ahead of me. I did feel a bit...
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Well, I got the bike out of the garage (It took me a while to find it under all the other cr@p in there).
I knew that, when i last looked at it some years ago, it had a puncture. After trying to get the wheel nut off, i gave up and took it to Halfords to get the inner tube replaced. So now i am set to do some exercise on my bike. My OH is coming with me tomorrow for a bike ride to a village clos...
I knew that, when i last looked at it some years ago, it had a puncture. After trying to get the wheel nut off, i gave up and took it to Halfords to get the inner tube replaced. So now i am set to do some exercise on my bike. My OH is coming with me tomorrow for a bike ride to a village clos...
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Got to love those husks! Ladies and gentlement, we have movement!! :-D
Work was okay and had a lovely chat with my friend at lunchtime.
All is right with the world. I have a good feeling about this week now!
Work was okay and had a lovely chat with my friend at lunchtime.
All is right with the world. I have a good feeling about this week now!
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I think i may be worrying for nothing, but i am concerned that my constipation is starting to be a problem. I had a small BM on Wednesday morning, but since then, i feel like something is there, but i can't seem to get it out. I don't feel any pain or discomfort, but feel a little bloated and have a bit of wind.
I have taken the bull by the horns and bought some Psyllium husk capsules. I don't k...
I have taken the bull by the horns and bought some Psyllium husk capsules. I don't k...
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I suspected something was up, as i feel bloated and constipated. The scales certainly reflected that with a 1lb loss. I am not too unhappy though, as i had prepared myself for this. 1lb loss is better than no loss, or a gain.
Annoyed in class again, as the SL (Serial Lapser) was so dismissive of the counselling session. At one point she said that it was rubbish and she didn't know what it had t...
Annoyed in class again, as the SL (Serial Lapser) was so dismissive of the counselling session. At one point she said that it was rubbish and she didn't know what it had t...
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I am in the worst downer at the moment. I took a Dulcolax yesterday and woke up at 3am with the worst IBS pain i have had for years. Now i feel like i have been punched in the stomach, and although the Dulcolax did its job, i feel really bloated right now. I am convinced that i haven't lost any weight this week.
Work was quite tough and other factors (which i won't go into) have added to my st...
Work was quite tough and other factors (which i won't go into) have added to my st...
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I normally time my bathroom scales so i don't see the weigh in (it records it in the background for me, so i can upload it once a week). I timed it wrongly last night and saw that i had lost nothing from Thursday to Sunday. I know i am strong, but that got to me a bit. I was feeling angry and stupid and it took me quite a while before i could get over it. Needless to say, i had to jump on the ...
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I don't know what's up with me. I woke today at 12.30pm! I went to bed before midnight, so i had over 12 hours sleep!! I haven't done that since i was a teenager. I don't feel particularly exausted generally, although my stamina is low. Today i just felt weary for a lot of the day. Hope i am not coming down with someting.
Also, i haven't had a BM since Friday. I am normally a "once a day" gi...
Also, i haven't had a BM since Friday. I am normally a "once a day" gi...
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The weekends have been tough for me since i started LL. Usually boredom is a big trigger for me to eat. This Saturday was the first day that i did not feel boredom hunger, so i am really proud of that.
Haven't done a lot though, just housework and took the dog for a walk, but food never came into the equation. I thought i would get a Thai Chilli soup this week, as it will be the first time i h...
Haven't done a lot though, just housework and took the dog for a walk, but food never came into the equation. I thought i would get a Thai Chilli soup this week, as it will be the first time i h...
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Not much to report today. Working from home was a bit boring today.
Sometimes i seem to be filling my blog up with events, rather than feelings. I really am going to try to address that from now on. What is the point of doing this blog if i look back on it in a few months time and get nothing from it?
At this stage of my weight loss (2 stone at present on LL, and 1 stone 6lbs on SW) i am settling...
Sometimes i seem to be filling my blog up with events, rather than feelings. I really am going to try to address that from now on. What is the point of doing this blog if i look back on it in a few months time and get nothing from it?
At this stage of my weight loss (2 stone at present on LL, and 1 stone 6lbs on SW) i am settling...
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I went out for drinks after work with some colleagues (and Petal, who i hadn't seen for a while). I had such a lovely time that, when it came time for them to go to the restaurant for their meal, i joined them. Another benefit of the diet is i can spend more time yapping, instead of filling my gob. The restaurant was very nice, and the waitresses did not make any fuss about me not eating. The ...
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Felt almost like i was going to faint today. Think it's because it's my TOTM and the first day is always a bit rough.
I lost 3lbs this week (which is okay, considering TOTM) which takes me to a grand total of 2 stone in 5 weeks. I am really happy with that!!
Working from home for the next couple of days, so i will see if this affects my willpower. Seeing as there's nothing in the fridge and my ...
I lost 3lbs this week (which is okay, considering TOTM) which takes me to a grand total of 2 stone in 5 weeks. I am really happy with that!!
Working from home for the next couple of days, so i will see if this affects my willpower. Seeing as there's nothing in the fridge and my ...
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I am a bit worried about my increased hunger. At the moment i can control it, but it has started doubts in my mind about being able to continue in abstinence until May/June next year.
I suppose it's a case of "one day at a time" and sometimes "one hour at a time".
Was salivating again last night. Not sure what is causing this, but i hope it doesn't happen again tonight. My OH is going away fo...
I suppose it's a case of "one day at a time" and sometimes "one hour at a time".
Was salivating again last night. Not sure what is causing this, but i hope it doesn't happen again tonight. My OH is going away fo...
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I had a dreadful night. I just couldn't get to sleep and i kept salivating. I wasn't hungry, but just couldn't stop salivating. How weird is that? Seeing as i couldn't sleep, i decided to do some visualisation of what it would be like to be slim. Its my second favourite fantasy (after winner the lottery!)
This morning, i put on a pair of trousers (admittedly it was the second wear as i am ru...
This morning, i put on a pair of trousers (admittedly it was the second wear as i am ru...
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I seem to struggle more at the weekends, with so much time on my hands, and the fridge so close!!!
I stayed abstinent throughout the weekend, but am very glad that the weekend is over now.
No real challenges for the week ahead, although i may end up working from home for part of that, but i don't think i need to worry about that.
Feel quite sad tonight, as the journey ahead seems so long and lon...
I stayed abstinent throughout the weekend, but am very glad that the weekend is over now.
No real challenges for the week ahead, although i may end up working from home for part of that, but i don't think i need to worry about that.
Feel quite sad tonight, as the journey ahead seems so long and lon...
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It seems like a long time before my weigh in on Wednesday. I guess that could be down to the fact that i weighed in a day early last week, or because i am a little anxious as its that TOTM for a little water retention!
Was supposed to check out a new gym tonight, but i had a falling out with my OH and used that to chicken out of going. I am really worried about walking through those doors and bei...
Was supposed to check out a new gym tonight, but i had a falling out with my OH and used that to chicken out of going. I am really worried about walking through those doors and bei...
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Had my stitches out today. Ouch! I was much braver this time though!
Apart from that, have nothing to report. Just another day on the good ship Lighter Life!
The weekend stretches out in front of me and i have to find a way to fill it (that doesn't involve housework, yuk).
Going to go an have my hot choc now and settle in front of TV. It's a tough life!!!
Apart from that, have nothing to report. Just another day on the good ship Lighter Life!
The weekend stretches out in front of me and i have to find a way to fill it (that doesn't involve housework, yuk).
Going to go an have my hot choc now and settle in front of TV. It's a tough life!!!
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Well, i got through the conference with barely a hiccup. I say barely, as i had a narrow escape. I was drinking soda water all night (which was fine), but at some point, the barman gave me lemonade instead of soda water. I took one mouthful and stopped before i swallowed. I went directly to the toilet (getting some funny looks on the way) and spat it out. I am so dedicated to abstinence that ...
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As i am away for the normal session tomorrow, i popped in tonight for my weigh in. I have lost 6lbs. O yay, there is a god!!
I am so chuffed with that amount, and it's even better as it's a day earlier than i would normally weigh in. Thats 25lbs in four weeks. I ROCK!!! \:D
I also had an emergency appointment with the nurse, as i was concerned that my wound had become infected. They looked a...
I am so chuffed with that amount, and it's even better as it's a day earlier than i would normally weigh in. Thats 25lbs in four weeks. I ROCK!!! \:D
I also had an emergency appointment with the nurse, as i was concerned that my wound had become infected. They looked a...
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I am feeling very sorry for myself tonight. My stiches are hurting and it has started weeping (sorry if TMI). I just want my leg to get better so i can start improving my exercise. It is so frustrating.
Also tonight my OH was eating a microwave burger. I know that these things are wasted calories and full of junk, but i just wanted to take a big bite of it. i think i am starting to crave meat ...
Also tonight my OH was eating a microwave burger. I know that these things are wasted calories and full of junk, but i just wanted to take a big bite of it. i think i am starting to crave meat ...
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Well, it's been amazing. I have made it one quarter of the way through foundation, and (although i have struggled on a couple of occaisons) i have been abstinent throughout.
I look back to the first couple of weeks and remember how slowly each hour would pass. Now it's just part of my life. Same as showering, washing my hair or other daily rituals. I still don't feel that i have lost any inches...
I look back to the first couple of weeks and remember how slowly each hour would pass. Now it's just part of my life. Same as showering, washing my hair or other daily rituals. I still don't feel that i have lost any inches...
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So much for 10,000 steps! I probably haven't done over 200 steps today.
I am cat sitting at my friends beautiful converted granary (my little holiday home as i like to call it). Having such a lazy day, just reading a book and reading the blogs and forum on this site. Spent most of the evening so far in front of the log fire (the best way to tackle those pesky LL cold feet, hands and nose)
Feel sl...
I am cat sitting at my friends beautiful converted granary (my little holiday home as i like to call it). Having such a lazy day, just reading a book and reading the blogs and forum on this site. Spent most of the evening so far in front of the log fire (the best way to tackle those pesky LL cold feet, hands and nose)
Feel sl...
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I was just looking back on my previous diary entries and i realised how time has seemed to speed up now. The foodpacks are a way of life. Water intake is just habit, and food cravings are just like bodily functions (something you can't always stop, but feel a bit embarrassed about afterwards).
I am waiting for the big moment where my willpower is really tested. So far i have done the following:
S...
I am waiting for the big moment where my willpower is really tested. So far i have done the following:
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Oh boy, does my knee feel sore!
I'm hobbling around like Jake the Peg and feeling like i've ordered the stitches in the wrong size, and am about the burst out of them!
Apart from that, not much to report about today.
We went to both Sainsbury's and Tesco's tonight (don't ask!)
I feel a little pang of sadness when i walk up and down those aisles, and then to come home and see all the goodies in the f...
I'm hobbling around like Jake the Peg and feeling like i've ordered the stitches in the wrong size, and am about the burst out of them!
Apart from that, not much to report about today.
We went to both Sainsbury's and Tesco's tonight (don't ask!)
I feel a little pang of sadness when i walk up and down those aisles, and then to come home and see all the goodies in the f...
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Well, i am so glad i got to the end of today. I feel like i've been through the wringer.
I was dreading the minor op all day, and as soon as i lay (face down) on the bed-type thing, i started crying and freaking out. They spent another 10 minutes getting their equipment together and i just kept getting worse. At the point when he gave me the local i was crying stupidly and squeezing David's ha...
I was dreading the minor op all day, and as soon as i lay (face down) on the bed-type thing, i started crying and freaking out. They spent another 10 minutes getting their equipment together and i just kept getting worse. At the point when he gave me the local i was crying stupidly and squeezing David's ha...
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Well, i have made it a fifth of the way, so good for me!
Had a bad day at work, just felt so low and didn't want to talk to anyone about it. There is nothing worse than smiling and laughing when all you want to do is cry, it makes you feel like you are pulling bits of your heart out.
I am full of anticipation (and worry) about tomorrow. For once, the weigh in is not the only thing i can think ab...
Had a bad day at work, just felt so low and didn't want to talk to anyone about it. There is nothing worse than smiling and laughing when all you want to do is cry, it makes you feel like you are pulling bits of your heart out.
I am full of anticipation (and worry) about tomorrow. For once, the weigh in is not the only thing i can think ab...
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I am holding my breath, waiting for a time when this diet gets really tough to stick to, but that hasn't happened yet.
My new found determination and great outlook on life is quite strange to me and the old me wonders how long it will last.
The greatest worries i seem to have regarding food now is when i can fit in my foodpacks if i am having a non-routine day. The thought of cheating does cross...
My new found determination and great outlook on life is quite strange to me and the old me wonders how long it will last.
The greatest worries i seem to have regarding food now is when i can fit in my foodpacks if i am having a non-routine day. The thought of cheating does cross...
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Sunday started off really well. I took Oscar (my Jack Russel) to the beach with my parents and thier dog, Rascal.
Both dogs were enjoying themselves so much, and oscar was doing this usual digging and running around.
I had managed my foodpacks really well, to accommodate the day out, but i struggled with the water intake, even though i took a two litre bottle with water flavouring in it.
On the way...
Both dogs were enjoying themselves so much, and oscar was doing this usual digging and running around.
I had managed my foodpacks really well, to accommodate the day out, but i struggled with the water intake, even though i took a two litre bottle with water flavouring in it.
On the way...
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I think my stepper is faulty. The first two days it was working really well, and i did over 10,000 steps a day. Today it hardly seemed to register anything (not that i did a lot of walking today).
Felt a bit drained today, but maybe that's because i'm not used to working on a Saturday.
Tonight was my weakest moment so far. The OH cooked my favourite pasta dish and i was so close to just eating ...
Felt a bit drained today, but maybe that's because i'm not used to working on a Saturday.
Tonight was my weakest moment so far. The OH cooked my favourite pasta dish and i was so close to just eating ...
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My doctor is so supportive of my LL journey. I also have a nasty benign tumour on my leg which is stopping me from doing much exercise.
I was originally told that i couldn't have it removed until December as there is quite a waiting list (although it bleeds every day) so i see my lovely Dr and he says to instruct the reception desk that it is urgent and to put me on his personal list for minor sur...
I was originally told that i couldn't have it removed until December as there is quite a waiting list (although it bleeds every day) so i see my lovely Dr and he says to instruct the reception desk that it is urgent and to put me on his personal list for minor sur...
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Well, after still feeling down for most of today, i think i have finally got things in perspective.
4lbs is a good loss and i would be happy to lose that every week. As a precautionary measure i have decided to experiment with upping my water intake from 4ltrs to 5 ltrs a day. The last litre is proving to be a bit tricky, but i'm determined to do it.
Also putting this whole work thing into persp...
4lbs is a good loss and i would be happy to lose that every week. As a precautionary measure i have decided to experiment with upping my water intake from 4ltrs to 5 ltrs a day. The last litre is proving to be a bit tricky, but i'm determined to do it.
Also putting this whole work thing into persp...
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I was a fool and i went into my second weigh in with a stupid expectation of how much was a good amount to lose. I lost 4lbs, but i just wanted to cry. On any other diet 4lbs would be fantastic, but i have just let my imagination get the better of me and have wound up feeling like a failure.
My mood is not great today anyway, as found out that someone i detest and who made my life miserable is ab...
My mood is not great today anyway, as found out that someone i detest and who made my life miserable is ab...
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I learned a hard lesson last night....
As i have mentioned before, i have a set of groovy scales that measure everything except how many teeth you have :-D
Well, as i make a point of just storing the measurements, and not looking at them until my official weigh in, i have to get on them each day with my eyes shut.
My OH has been curious the last couple of days to know how well i have been doing. I...
As i have mentioned before, i have a set of groovy scales that measure everything except how many teeth you have :-D
Well, as i make a point of just storing the measurements, and not looking at them until my official weigh in, i have to get on them each day with my eyes shut.
My OH has been curious the last couple of days to know how well i have been doing. I...
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I am starting to worry that i won't have lost much weight this week. I have a figure in my head of the amount i want to lose and its far too high, so i am going to end up disappointed.
Can't believe how well i did with drinking the water today. Well over 2 litres before i left work, and i still felt thirsty.
Still resisting using the bars as a meal. I want to stick to the soups/shakes until i h...
Can't believe how well i did with drinking the water today. Well over 2 litres before i left work, and i still felt thirsty.
Still resisting using the bars as a meal. I want to stick to the soups/shakes until i h...
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I have gone from living for the weekends, to dreading them. All that free time really messes up my routine. Bah humbug!!! 
Sitting here with my stomach rumbling and only a mildly interesting hot chocolate to look forward to. To add insult to injury my OH cooked my favourite pasta dish (sun-dried tomato and Quark). I had to beat a hasty retreat upstairs to read all the blogs on this website t...
Sitting here with my stomach rumbling and only a mildly interesting hot chocolate to look forward to. To add insult to injury my OH cooked my favourite pasta dish (sun-dried tomato and Quark). I had to beat a hasty retreat upstairs to read all the blogs on this website t...
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Having a bad day in my life. Things just aren't right at home and that's making me feel miserable and tempted to eat to numb the ache. Didn't give in though.
My routine was a little screwed up, so i only ended up having 3 foodpacks today. That and only just over 2 litres of water. Hope this doesn't affect my loss too much.
Feeling pretty low, which makes it difficult to believe that i am worth a...
My routine was a little screwed up, so i only ended up having 3 foodpacks today. That and only just over 2 litres of water. Hope this doesn't affect my loss too much.
Feeling pretty low, which makes it difficult to believe that i am worth a...
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Another day passes and this is starting to feel like normal life. I am still having trouble believing that i can feel satisfied with 4 packets of powder a day, it is so weird!
I know that the weekend will be a bit more challenging, and i think i will end up just waiting for Monday to come round again (shame).
One of the stranger side effects i keep having is dreaming of cheating on my diet. I drea...
I know that the weekend will be a bit more challenging, and i think i will end up just waiting for Monday to come round again (shame).
One of the stranger side effects i keep having is dreaming of cheating on my diet. I drea...
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Well, thank goodness the first week was over. Now i have the first weigh in behind me, i feel like i can settle into a routine. Its weird thinking that i haven't eaten solid food for over a week. I like to shock people by saying that!
I told the people at work about my amazing weight loss, and they were really cheering me on. I did feel though that a few of them had that "OMG this diet is dange...
I told the people at work about my amazing weight loss, and they were really cheering me on. I did feel though that a few of them had that "OMG this diet is dange...
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Well, i had my first weigh in tonight. 12lbs...... WTF!
I have NEVER lost that much in my first week of any diet. It's amazing!
There are now four in our group (but one couldn't stay tonight). They all seem like a great bunch of people and we were never short of things to talk about.
A bit of a fly in the soup was my OH. Got home and he was semi-enthusiastic about my weight loss. I got a lett...
I have NEVER lost that much in my first week of any diet. It's amazing!
There are now four in our group (but one couldn't stay tonight). They all seem like a great bunch of people and we were never short of things to talk about.
A bit of a fly in the soup was my OH. Got home and he was semi-enthusiastic about my weight loss. I got a lett...
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I just felt the cravings getting to me a bit today, think its due to not drinking as much water as normal. Earlier i started questioning why the hell i am doing this anyway. I felt quite down and negative 3 hours ago. Am starting to come out of it a bit but it has made me worry about my staying power. My inner negative voice can be really strong at times, and i worry that i will just give in t...
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Day 5 and i am cruising along today. It really helps when i am really busy at work, then i don't have to think about food too much (not that i have been thinking about it much anyway).
I had lunch with a friend today. She had a jacket potato and Cottage cheese and i had a mineral water. I eyed up her jacket, admiring how crispy the skin was, but wasn't tempted to eat myself.
Still having a few ...
I had lunch with a friend today. She had a jacket potato and Cottage cheese and i had a mineral water. I eyed up her jacket, admiring how crispy the skin was, but wasn't tempted to eat myself.
Still having a few ...
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Well, after the awful day yesterday, i feel a lot more normal today (thank goodness).
I had a bit of trouble trying to get down the water today, as i was out and about and only have 2ltr bottles to lug around. Must buy some 500ml bottles for days out, its a lot easier!
Didn't feel tired today, but just the normal exhaustion after trawling around the shops for a couple of hours.
It was interestin...
I had a bit of trouble trying to get down the water today, as i was out and about and only have 2ltr bottles to lug around. Must buy some 500ml bottles for days out, its a lot easier!
Didn't feel tired today, but just the normal exhaustion after trawling around the shops for a couple of hours.
It was interestin...
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Its been a rollercoaster of a day. I tried to clear out the kitchen cupboards (in a purging moment) and only got as far as the first two before i just couldn't be bothered to do any more. I finished off cleaning the surfaces though and cleaned the lounge, then took the dog for a walk, so i feel like it wasn't a total waste of a day. I feel lacking in energy at the moment, which is making me gru...
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Well, so far no hunger pangs today (other than the odd craving for a Jacobs cracker, whats that all about?)
Thank god for mushroom soup. I was starting to despair of the soups after Thai Chilli and Chicken, but the mushroom (with tabasco) was soup-er (can't resist a pun)!
I even managed to drink almost 5 litres of water today too.
Not sure if i am losing my concerntration, but i am finding it a chal...
Thank god for mushroom soup. I was starting to despair of the soups after Thai Chilli and Chicken, but the mushroom (with tabasco) was soup-er (can't resist a pun)!
I even managed to drink almost 5 litres of water today too.
Not sure if i am losing my concerntration, but i am finding it a chal...
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Well,i have completed day one of LL. I had the chocolate shake for breakfast, and learned quickly that it is better to use the hand blender than the shaker provided. Drinking the shake felt a bit odd, although the chocolate flavour was very good.
Got a little hungry about half an hour before lunch, so just kept drinking the water. Had the Thai Chilli soup for lunch and got a few funny looks fr...
Got a little hungry about half an hour before lunch, so just kept drinking the water. Had the Thai Chilli soup for lunch and got a few funny looks fr...
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We had our first meeting last night. There were only two of us there, but the LL counsellor said that more would be joining in the next two weeks. I am glad i am there on week one though. The most difficult thing to do was to pick which foodpacks i wanted for the week ahead. I haven't got a clue what any of them taste like! I have taken the advice of others on this forum and gone for a good a...
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As my doctor answered yes to one of my medical questions, that means that head office has to sign off on my joining LL, which means i can't join the group this Wednesday, but will have to wait another 9 days! I was so geared up to start and now i feel like there is some forces working against me. Preventing me from starting the rest of my life. Next Wednesday seems like a lifetime away.
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I had the wonderful idea of having one last naughty food binge before starting group on Wednesday. I decided on one of my old favourite foods - the kebab. I know these are not to most people's tastes, but i used to love them (especially the bursa kebab). So, i thought why not have one? Now is know the answer - Because they taste horrible. It was bland and greasy at the start, and by the last ...
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I thought it would be a good idea to list all the reasons why i want to lose weight. Here goes:
1 - to feel "normal"
2 - to be able to run somewhere
3 - to look in a mirror and not see just the bad bits
4 - to be able to cross my legs when sitting down
5 - to fit into, and enjoy, a bath
6 - to wear sleeveless tops
7 - to wear skirts (just above the knee, not mini - i am not a tart!)
8 - to not worry abou...
1 - to feel "normal"
2 - to be able to run somewhere
3 - to look in a mirror and not see just the bad bits
4 - to be able to cross my legs when sitting down
5 - to fit into, and enjoy, a bath
6 - to wear sleeveless tops
7 - to wear skirts (just above the knee, not mini - i am not a tart!)
8 - to not worry abou...
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Well, i had my info session yesterday. How inspirational was that? There was a girl on the DVD who looked so thin and model like, and all the way through the DVD i kept thinking "i bet she only had the minimum 3 stone to lose", then at the end i find out that she weighed more than me!
Is it possible that this diet could finally work? I have been overweight all of my life, and morbidly obese fo...
Is it possible that this diet could finally work? I have been overweight all of my life, and morbidly obese fo...
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