| Next part of the LL journey......... all my goals are needing to change - I always do this again and again but this time am not trying to wipe the slate clean but just carry on Have lost just over 3 stone  So next goal is to get down to 70kg by november Currently 90kg so it is a very very tall order - but on 12th november am going away so would love to be lighter! So have 20kg = 44lbs in 65 days hard to do but am going to drink loads and start going to the gym! Not the most easy target but going to just go for it as flights are booked It should also take me down to a bmi of 26 which would be awesome |
Well not blogged for a long time as I have been really stressed out with the exam and work. It just never seems to end. Did start off doing ok with the odd lapse but sticking with the dust. However have managed to find this weird combination of having x and y and z at the moment. Have to admit guys it has not made me feel any better than being on the dust and bars.
Right now - along with alot of h...
Right now - along with alot of h...
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Well had WI today - lost 3.5lbs which am very very lucky to have lost given all the stresses had in the past week. Really felt that have been given another chance to keep going.
Also am breaking down my goals - so for next (approx) 28 days I need to just focus on loosing the next stone = 14lbs and so far have lost 4.5lbs!!!!
The nut fudge bars have thankfully changed a little and are a bit harde...
Also am breaking down my goals - so for next (approx) 28 days I need to just focus on loosing the next stone = 14lbs and so far have lost 4.5lbs!!!!
The nut fudge bars have thankfully changed a little and are a bit harde...
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Well so far to day have avoided doing any revision but am slowly running out of things so am going to have to hit the books soon 
Have re set the goals. Was finding that was lapsing and seemed to like having more than one bar a day. So needed some adult thinking chats with LLC group and friends on here and back on the plan. The plan is what the plan is and going to try 100% to stick with it and g...
Have re set the goals. Was finding that was lapsing and seemed to like having more than one bar a day. So needed some adult thinking chats with LLC group and friends on here and back on the plan. The plan is what the plan is and going to try 100% to stick with it and g...
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Well it has been another week where have tried to stick with the 4 packs and compared to previous weeks it has been really good x have got into a little routine and then started on nights and it all seems to have gone to pot again!
So half way through my third bar of the day I thought what am I doing - I am not even enjoying this, it does not even taste that good (trust me after the first bar they ...
So half way through my third bar of the day I thought what am I doing - I am not even enjoying this, it does not even taste that good (trust me after the first bar they ...
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Hey not blogged for few days as been bit stressed and tired
So lost 3lbs this week which I was totally shocked by. I had really convinced myself that I would have gained so it was a real surprise.
I have an exam in five weeks that i think is putting alot of stress on me at the moment plus I started new job on wed.
So thought why not just have an extra bar everyday. But LLC was very assertive in th...
So lost 3lbs this week which I was totally shocked by. I had really convinced myself that I would have gained so it was a real surprise.
I have an exam in five weeks that i think is putting alot of stress on me at the moment plus I started new job on wed.
So thought why not just have an extra bar everyday. But LLC was very assertive in th...
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Well have WI tonight and I know that will have gained as just feel huge and bloated. Worse thing is I know that I made the choices to do this to my body. SO why do i keep doing this to myself?
Keep trying to think of a reason not to go but I know that will make it all worse
Plus need my little drug fix of having a bar!!!!!
Eek does anyone else feel like they are addicted to food?
Keep trying to think of a reason not to go but I know that will make it all worse
Plus need my little drug fix of having a bar!!!!!
Eek does anyone else feel like they are addicted to food?
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Well have WI tonight and I know that will have gained as just feel huge and bloated. Worse thing is I know that I made the choices to do this to my body. SO why do i keep doing this to myself?
Keep trying to think of a reason not to go but I know that will make it all worse
Plus need my little drug fix of having a bar!!!!!
Eek does anyone else feel like they are addicted to food?
Keep trying to think of a reason not to go but I know that will make it all worse
Plus need my little drug fix of having a bar!!!!!
Eek does anyone else feel like they are addicted to food?
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So the experiment kind worked in more ways than one -
1. I can no longer binge eat
2. The second bar does not taste as good as the first
3. It is all about choice - I am choosing to do this diet - choices choices choices
4. The period has lightened up so am feeling better that it is likely the diet but after all the advice from everyone (thanks Ali for sharing so much) that I will also go and see ...
1. I can no longer binge eat
2. The second bar does not taste as good as the first
3. It is all about choice - I am choosing to do this diet - choices choices choices
4. The period has lightened up so am feeling better that it is likely the diet but after all the advice from everyone (thanks Ali for sharing so much) that I will also go and see ...
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Well the mind is a very annoying tool x
When I had my lapse my period also stopped.
So now back on my one bar a day - period is back!
So have decided to try and binge on bars to see if period stops - if it does then I know what the problem is and can deal with it - hopefully minus some gynae exams!!!!!
So off I go to get bars - no excitement no rush no high - even manage to drive home with bars int...
When I had my lapse my period also stopped.
So now back on my one bar a day - period is back!
So have decided to try and binge on bars to see if period stops - if it does then I know what the problem is and can deal with it - hopefully minus some gynae exams!!!!!
So off I go to get bars - no excitement no rush no high - even manage to drive home with bars int...
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Well had to do the day with no food packs due to my binging and OCD (ocd cos I make my packs into a goo and put too much water in and so threw 2 packs away) got more packs at WI x
It is odd - I did not have anymore protein since thurs and had no extra bars etc since sat - so at WI lost 4 pounds. Which I am happy and sad about. AM happy as it is one step closer to goal. Sad as i do not want the tho...
It is odd - I did not have anymore protein since thurs and had no extra bars etc since sat - so at WI lost 4 pounds. Which I am happy and sad about. AM happy as it is one step closer to goal. Sad as i do not want the tho...
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well have tried pretty much everything to try and get rid of my hunger and nothing so far has worked
even - just after midnight have had a pack and water - but still hungry but am wondering if my lack of falling asleep is due to too much going on in my head so thought maybe a blog will help
really like Tia's idea of having ceremonies and buying useful things that are not clothes. got me thinking t...
even - just after midnight have had a pack and water - but still hungry but am wondering if my lack of falling asleep is due to too much going on in my head so thought maybe a blog will help
really like Tia's idea of having ceremonies and buying useful things that are not clothes. got me thinking t...
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Well went to pop in this morning
Did not get weighed as - if I have lost it would only make me think I can cheat and get away with it - if I had gained then it would have made me feel worse and I would have thought I will get back on track on monday (what is so magical about mondays?)
So got bars for sat/sun/mon and no extra!
Did well to start with but have now eaten them
Then went to shop to get ...
Did not get weighed as - if I have lost it would only make me think I can cheat and get away with it - if I had gained then it would have made me feel worse and I would have thought I will get back on track on monday (what is so magical about mondays?)
So got bars for sat/sun/mon and no extra!
Did well to start with but have now eaten them
Then went to shop to get ...
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It is late and am slowly getting tired but did alot of thinking today and a fair bit of sorting out in the flat
Been living here now since september and moved all my belongings in when "our" house sold in april. Boxes everywhere and each time I try and plough through the stuff I find something that reminds me of ex and just cry x I can see why when we first split that everyone would say to me it i...
Been living here now since september and moved all my belongings in when "our" house sold in april. Boxes everywhere and each time I try and plough through the stuff I find something that reminds me of ex and just cry x I can see why when we first split that everyone would say to me it i...
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Keep wanting to put some positive blogs in but can not seem to work out what my problem is
had a great holiday with packs and salad lost a little weight so what do I do when I get back? Have eaten a weeks worth of bars in one go and now have had some protein.
I just feel like such a failure in all aspects of life and just keep ruining any attempts I make to improve my life.
It seems like being mis...
had a great holiday with packs and salad lost a little weight so what do I do when I get back? Have eaten a weeks worth of bars in one go and now have had some protein.
I just feel like such a failure in all aspects of life and just keep ruining any attempts I make to improve my life.
It seems like being mis...
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Well not blogged for a while - missed it and all the fabulous people on here
SInce last blog had mega busy weekend at work!
Then the day before my holiday I decided I should go an see doc about my period being in its 7th week (or 6th) he suggested coming off diet to see if it helps - DING DONG - I can eat mmmmm so being the rational person that I am (not) went to Spar and got 8 quorn sausages. Co...
SInce last blog had mega busy weekend at work!
Then the day before my holiday I decided I should go an see doc about my period being in its 7th week (or 6th) he suggested coming off diet to see if it helps - DING DONG - I can eat mmmmm so being the rational person that I am (not) went to Spar and got 8 quorn sausages. Co...
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So had my WI on monday and got to 2 stone target (1lb over actually) and have lost some inches too
So I wonder why am I not on top of the world?
Well thought it was due to work and yep today was a pants day and then while waiting for my friend to pick me up had serious thoughts about eating out and was so close to doing so.
Why is it I can not turn to exercise in times of stress? All I want is f...
So I wonder why am I not on top of the world?
Well thought it was due to work and yep today was a pants day and then while waiting for my friend to pick me up had serious thoughts about eating out and was so close to doing so.
Why is it I can not turn to exercise in times of stress? All I want is f...
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Well it has been a very long thoughtful day x
One big reason for doing LL is that I have a vascular problem with my leg that I was hoping to get embolised. Went to see the consultant today and he has said that he is unable to do it. The only other option is to have it removed surgically and have a skin graft if there is a plastic surgeon wiling.
Gut reaction was to stuff LL eat eat eat eat and in ...
One big reason for doing LL is that I have a vascular problem with my leg that I was hoping to get embolised. Went to see the consultant today and he has said that he is unable to do it. The only other option is to have it removed surgically and have a skin graft if there is a plastic surgeon wiling.
Gut reaction was to stuff LL eat eat eat eat and in ...
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well went out for a little today but miss food and guess still a bit tired from sore throat
am thinking this must be the odd time - not really in the zone of not missing food places but not in the zone to shop and keep busy so found going to shops a boring experience - not normal for me
so think maybe in 6-8 weeks it will be more enjoyable as I will need clothes and hopefully will have more energy...
am thinking this must be the odd time - not really in the zone of not missing food places but not in the zone to shop and keep busy so found going to shops a boring experience - not normal for me
so think maybe in 6-8 weeks it will be more enjoyable as I will need clothes and hopefully will have more energy...
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There is no mood option for neutral in mood
I feel neutral today - which am taking as good as not feeling negative so it is an improvement
It is day 49 today and am half way through foundation and 1/4 of the way through my 200 days
Had a lovely day today went to Sharrow Vale Market (local market down the road) and there were some fab stalls including food ones - resisted of course but made me r...
I feel neutral today - which am taking as good as not feeling negative so it is an improvement
It is day 49 today and am half way through foundation and 1/4 of the way through my 200 days
Had a lovely day today went to Sharrow Vale Market (local market down the road) and there were some fab stalls including food ones - resisted of course but made me r...
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Well all I want to do is raid the fridge (well if there was anything in it) or dial up some fatty food
so thought will try and blog instead to try and get to the point where I can sleep without lapsing
so it is day 48 today and I would like to do 200 days so am a 1/4 of the way through x phew
the anxiety about food when on RTM is kicking in x have asked LLC if can extend RTM by doing two weeks o...
so thought will try and blog instead to try and get to the point where I can sleep without lapsing
so it is day 48 today and I would like to do 200 days so am a 1/4 of the way through x phew
the anxiety about food when on RTM is kicking in x have asked LLC if can extend RTM by doing two weeks o...
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Well onto day 45 - at moments thought could not get through 4 hours let alone a whole day x
Over the last two weeks have lost a total of 7lbs so about 3.5lb a week but missed group last week x
Awful day at work. Objectively people were not being fair. Subjectively they are all so thin and pretty which is why I thought they were getting their own way
So after some tears and a talk from a nice senio...
Over the last two weeks have lost a total of 7lbs so about 3.5lb a week but missed group last week x
Awful day at work. Objectively people were not being fair. Subjectively they are all so thin and pretty which is why I thought they were getting their own way
So after some tears and a talk from a nice senio...
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Well what can I say.........the match was terrible made worse my the fact one of my (possibly soon to be ex) best friends is german.
All I can think is if I have an extra bar then it is still a LL product so is not really lapsing is it? How crooked is that thought!
Even though I am watching half ton man I still want to eat. How stupid is that.
On a plus side - yep am not always so miserable and gr...
All I can think is if I have an extra bar then it is still a LL product so is not really lapsing is it? How crooked is that thought!
Even though I am watching half ton man I still want to eat. How stupid is that.
On a plus side - yep am not always so miserable and gr...
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Well forget the diet at the moment am more annoyed about the pay freeze for the public sector!!!! I know am being brattish but really trying to save for the huge house deposit that you need these days
So if anyone for the next year tells me that renting is throwing away money then they should expect a mouthful in return
Mmmmm thinking possibly a bit more sensitive as not had any normal food for 3...
So if anyone for the next year tells me that renting is throwing away money then they should expect a mouthful in return
Mmmmm thinking possibly a bit more sensitive as not had any normal food for 3...
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well forced myself to go out for a little while and got the complete series of Father Ted - am now watching it from episode one. Forgot how funny it is.
hope everyone is enjoying the weather x
hope everyone is enjoying the weather x
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Just had some very daft giggles over text messages - silly stuff
On day 35 which is not an official type of milestone in anyway but i feel like after yesterday and the bar blip my brain has finally caught on that this is life for a while
so right now I do not feel as traumatised by LL as i had been and slowly penny is dropping that this is my chance to start a new life.
not that weight loss automa...
On day 35 which is not an official type of milestone in anyway but i feel like after yesterday and the bar blip my brain has finally caught on that this is life for a while
so right now I do not feel as traumatised by LL as i had been and slowly penny is dropping that this is my chance to start a new life.
not that weight loss automa...
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Well despite not feeling so cracking all week stuck with it. Then today had a nap woke and up and decided wanted another bar. So had one. Makes two for the day. It is about the only thing that has any taste and sounds bit mad but it feels good on my throat.
Feel bloody stupid now. Have got all my bars and packs mixed up few weeks ago but that was mainly due to doing alot of nights and getting days...
Feel bloody stupid now. Have got all my bars and packs mixed up few weeks ago but that was mainly due to doing alot of nights and getting days...
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well still sticking with it x
sore throat must be better as i am starting to feel hungry and water going down a bit easier - mostly due to discovering difflam spray. But is does not work for long!
Mmmmm am trying to lighten my mood a little on here so..........
Mid aug am hoping to meet Vee for a shopping trip to celebrate her reaching goal and for me to get some new work stuff
For me and my best f...
sore throat must be better as i am starting to feel hungry and water going down a bit easier - mostly due to discovering difflam spray. But is does not work for long!
Mmmmm am trying to lighten my mood a little on here so..........
Mid aug am hoping to meet Vee for a shopping trip to celebrate her reaching goal and for me to get some new work stuff
For me and my best f...
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Well weigh in was last night and I lost seven pounds hence the high
Have really bad sore throat and ear infection making the water and packs really hard to get down hence the low
Changing? Well growing up my mum had always got it stuck in our heads that when things are going well to always be careful as they may go wrong. So I feel worried that if get too excited about my weight loss this week...
hence the high Have really bad sore throat and ear infection making the water and packs really hard to get down
hence the low Changing? Well growing up my mum had always got it stuck in our heads that when things are going well to always be careful as they may go wrong. So I feel worried that if get too excited about my weight loss this week...
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so it seems that have just managed to hit day 28 on LL
mostly with help (alot) for my group and fab people on here thanks so much
seems like the journey forever but I know I have to stay on it to be healthy and live longer - of course to have some retail therapy x
no pain no gain
time for sleep working in morning x
P.S ideal day - goo breakfast bar mid afternoon double goo evening
goo = chocolat...
mostly with help (alot) for my group and fab people on here
thanks so much seems like the journey forever but I know I have to stay on it to be healthy and live longer - of course to have some retail therapy x
no pain no gain
time for sleep working in morning x
P.S ideal day - goo breakfast bar mid afternoon double goo evening
goo = chocolat...
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Well it had to happen at some point
I have not really told many people that am doing LL this time round. On a course so this woman asked and I thought what the hell so I told her. Then got the "oh that can not be healthy - you need to do more exercise and eat less" I so wanted to scream at her. I really hate it when people pass their judgement on what I should be doing. Esp when they do not know h...
I have not really told many people that am doing LL this time round. On a course so this woman asked and I thought what the hell so I told her. Then got the "oh that can not be healthy - you need to do more exercise and eat less" I so wanted to scream at her. I really hate it when people pass their judgement on what I should be doing. Esp when they do not know h...
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Well not really blogged much as was hoping would turn a corner and finally have something cheery to say..........
not happened yet BUT survived a BBQ food shopping with my mum and a meal at my most favourite place in the entire world
all that then lost 1.5 pounds was a little (ok alot sad) but figure that have still lost 4 pounds a week which is good and as always my group were just fab.
Does a...
not happened yet BUT survived a BBQ food shopping with my mum and a meal at my most favourite place in the entire world
all that then lost 1.5 pounds
was a little (ok alot sad) but figure that have still lost 4 pounds a week which is good and as always my group were just fab. Does a...
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Well had not blogged for few days as did not want to share my misery.
What is wrong? NOTHING!
Nothing major is wrong. Life is ticking along nicely. In fact had been burying my head in the sand about some paperwork etc and even got all that done.
But I am tired. Not hungry. Keep looking at thin people and thinking how wonderful their lives must be. Nearly fell through the window walking pass a food ...
What is wrong? NOTHING!
Nothing major is wrong. Life is ticking along nicely. In fact had been burying my head in the sand about some paperwork etc and even got all that done.
But I am tired. Not hungry. Keep looking at thin people and thinking how wonderful their lives must be. Nearly fell through the window walking pass a food ...
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Well what can i say. have stuck with it. Did nights this week and think got a little out of sync with the packs but other than that ok physically. Water stops the stomach rumbling. Packs are tolerable. Bit of tobascoe helps.
So what is the problem? My head.
However my group was just fab tonight and gave me some fantastic help.
When i said am miserable on the diet and miserable fat one lady said -...
So what is the problem? My head.
However my group was just fab tonight and gave me some fantastic help.
When i said am miserable on the diet and miserable fat one lady said -...
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Well got woken up be neighbour banging on door to say car been broken into!!!!
Window smashed and sat nav gone (yes I know stupid to keep in glove compartment)
So after about fifty million phone calls am now waiting for a phone call to see if they can come out to fix it.
Normally would have raided the fridge cupboards and the corner shop by now - but the fridge and cupboards are empty and have to w...
Window smashed and sat nav gone (yes I know stupid to keep in glove compartment)
So after about fifty million phone calls am now waiting for a phone call to see if they can come out to fix it.
Normally would have raided the fridge cupboards and the corner shop by now - but the fridge and cupboards are empty and have to w...
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Well if I do 100 days then am 10% of the way through
Worked in a different place today to normal and just really struggled
I do not even feel hungry alot of the time but food is or should say was my crutches (yes I ate so much I needed two crutches lol) and have yet to find something to occupy myself that does not involve eating.
I flip between positive and up beat to being really down and thinkin...
Worked in a different place today to normal and just really struggled
I do not even feel hungry alot of the time but food is or should say was my crutches (yes I ate so much I needed two crutches lol) and have yet to find something to occupy myself that does not involve eating.
I flip between positive and up beat to being really down and thinkin...
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Well lost 7.5 pounds
Am happy and a little sad that it was not as much as everyone else
Also guess do not have that same rush as you get for the first time when you do it!
But all said and done and being logical it is great and first step towards a lighter life. Due to illness I could not start the same time as everyone else - so seeing the changes in everyone today was lovely - well done everyone ...
Am happy and a little sad that it was not as much as everyone else
Also guess do not have that same rush as you get for the first time when you do it!
But all said and done and being logical it is great and first step towards a lighter life. Due to illness I could not start the same time as everyone else - so seeing the changes in everyone today was lovely - well done everyone ...
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Well getting weighed at 19.00
fingers crossed x been miserable all weekend and do not fell like have lost but have stuck with it and so hoping have lost even a little
fingers crossed x been miserable all weekend and do not fell like have lost but have stuck with it and so hoping have lost even a little
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Well have never done a blog before so here goes.......
Did LL a few years back. Lost great deal of weight. Came off suddenly and just went back to the same habits. YOU CAN RE STRETCH YOUR STOMACH trust me you really can. So after piling all the pounds back on (plus a few more) have joined the programme again. Mentally got to be ready as have found the week really hard. I live alone so have no food ...
Did LL a few years back. Lost great deal of weight. Came off suddenly and just went back to the same habits. YOU CAN RE STRETCH YOUR STOMACH trust me you really can. So after piling all the pounds back on (plus a few more) have joined the programme again. Mentally got to be ready as have found the week really hard. I live alone so have no food ...
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