12 Aug : 13:01
Quick Update [ Show blog ]
Hi all, haven't been on in the past few days as things are gearing up for our wedding and have had loads to do. Diet is going well, however I’m not abstinent, I'm having a pack for breakfast, one for lunch with a small salad and a meal in the evening.

Feeling a mixture of stress/anxiety/excitement on almost a daily basis and not sleeping much, and think this is helping to keep the weight off. ...
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06 Aug : 20:14
How can I loose my double chin ... I've only got 3 weeks le [ Show blog ]

If I'm 100% abstinent for next 3 weeks, will i loose my double chin???
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06 Aug : 08:56
* Wedding Dress fitting [ Show blog ]

Had my wedding dress fitting last night and i think i looked amazing. Dress was still a bit tight around my hips, but only a little bit and hope to loose that over next couple of weeks.

The back of the dress is laced up and my waist looked amazing, so pleased.

I haven't stuck to diet that well in past few days but this certainly gave me a boost and I think I can do it now until wedding day.

Have t...
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01 Aug : 20:11
Abstinence here I come !! [ Show blog ]
Am mentally prepared for abstinence from tomorrow morning, been speaking to a friend of mine who's been doing LL for past 5 months and feel very inspired by her. I think i've just been very hard on myself (doh!).

I know its going to be hard, but it will be worth it when my wedding day comes round.

I so appreciate all your help and support.

Will post a pic for you all to see.

Debbie xx
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30 Jul : 14:53
* Friday 30th July [ Show blog ]
Feeling pretty miserable today and need to have a rant, so apologies in advance. I haven’t relaly thought about what I’m writing, so its going to come out in a blurb. Here goes

Have had a very difficult couple of days, the last straw was this morning’s weigh in, I’ve gained weight this week. I admit I haven’t followed the plan, I’ve been trying to balance food packs with normal food,...
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26 Jul : 12:52
* Monday 26 July 2010 [ Show blog ]

If there’s one thing I dislike about this diet is everybody else thinking they have the right to comment on what you decide to put in your mouth whether it be healthy of not, if its not a milkshake then its going to be bad. The reason for this blog, I brought in some cakes for my colleagues because it was my birthday at the weekend. Mind you, as of yet nobody else has eaten a blinking morsel o...
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26 Jul : 01:12
* Back to it [ Show blog ]
Had an amazing weekend, a brill birthday and hen night on Saturday and a day of indulgence and crap food today. Lost count on Saturday of all the lovely food and drink i consumed and in the end just got down to enjoying myself and having a truly fab time.

Am looking forward to getting back on to the food packs though, after the first 3 days I feel in control once again and i enjoy the feeling of t...
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22 Jul : 22:51
* Oh poo !! [ Show blog ]

Had weigh in and put back on 5lbs, oh dear. Need to get back on track, god why am I making this so hard for myself.

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21 Jul : 17:04
* Not a good week [ Show blog ]
Haven't really been concentrating on diet this week, have upped my calories to 1000 (i'm on Cambridge Diet) but am struggling to come off the shakes. I haven't yet made a meal yet which meets the requirements. Instead I’m living on pieces of protein and the shakes, and I'm nibbling naughty bits too.

Got my next weigh in tomorrow, so will see how I've done.

One thing I've noticed is that I’m no...
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14 Jul : 20:06
* Wi Night - I've lost count ?? [ Show blog ]
I lost 3.5lbs this week, god knows how as I've got TOTM too. Very happy and motivated to carry on a bit longer.

Taking it one day at a time though.

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14 Jul : 12:49
* Shall I stay or shall i go ?? [ Show blog ]

The wheels are coming off and I'm feeling fed up with this diet. Haven't been following it 100% for couple of weeks, and even though have wedding coming up, i can't still be on this, my life is on hold and I want to be enjoying these last 6 weeks of single life. Have my weigh in later, and if I've gained or stay same then i will probably give up. However, if I've lost, then it might motivate me...
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12 Jul : 16:52
* God this is so hard [ Show blog ]
Didn't go to work today, just so bored there and couldn't face getting out of bed this morning.

Only trouble with being at home, the temptation to eat is massive, its nearly 3.50pm and i've managed to overcome 3 urges to eat, the last one I actually walked to the cornershop and walked back out empty handed. Was so hard, but felt a tiny ounce of goodness doing it too.

Have been reading Gillian Ril...
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11 Jul : 23:02
Sunday 11th July [ Show blog ]
I'm finding that being able to eat a small protein meal is throwing me completely. Much prefered having just the shakes. Just measured myself so hopefully that will keep me focused instead.

One day at a time is a good idea Ali1511

xx
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10 Jul : 19:16
* Weigh In 4 [ Show blog ]
Went to new CD counsellour on Thursday, should only be havng 3 shakes a day (instead of 4) and 2.5litres instead of 4litres. Didn't loose any weight but have pretty much nibbled every day.

Need to get back on track from now.
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07 Jul : 18:36
* Struggling again [ Show blog ]

Am struggling again to stick to plan, i'm ok at work, and think i know where i'm going wrong, i should have my 3rd shake at about 4pm, my home time. And if I leave eating until i get in, I'm normally ravenous and go straight to the fridge.
I might try having my 3rd shake at work before I leave, and then have my 4th and final one a bit later in the evening.

Tomorrow is weigh in day and I'm trying ...
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06 Jul : 12:36
* Day 28 [ Show blog ]
Feeling better today, and pleased that I owned up to OH about my secret bingeing, in a way its taken the pressure off a little. Maybe in the future whenever I feel caught up in the cycle of bingeing I can tell him about it and this will become a coping mechanism. I can never rule out bingeing, but I hope to be able to manage it.

Going to try and up my water intake today to 4 litres, am still suff...
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05 Jul : 19:19
* Oops [ Show blog ]
Not been good this weekend, had a planned lapse on Friday but ironically didn't enjoy it, went out on Saturday night, and they had a BBQ, which I couldn’t resist, albeit that it wasn’t particularly nice. Why is the thought of eating so much more attractive then when you are actually eating.

Sunday was a better day foodwise. We went to church to hear our banns being read, but found out that ...
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05 Jul : 10:38
* Oops [ Show blog ]
Not been good this weekend, had a planned lapse on Friday but ironically didn't enjoy it, went out on Saturday night, and they had a BBQ, which I couldn’t resist, albeit that it wasn’t particularly nice. Why is the thought of eating so much more attractive then when you are actually eating.

Sunday was a better day foodwise. We went to church to hear our banns being read, but found out that ...
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02 Jul : 20:40
* Weigh In 3 [ Show blog ]

I lost 4lbs this week !! Very pleased. That's a stone in 3 weeks. Hurrah !!

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30 Jun : 13:38
* Urrrrgh !!!! [ Show blog ]

Just need to vent something ............... Why do people have to eat hot food at their desks when there is a perfectly good restaurant they can go to !!! They are so selfish !!! The smell of their food is driving me insane !! if I could walk away I would but I can't.

Want to cry
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29 Jun : 19:08
* Feeling low today [ Show blog ]

Does anyone else feel fat today, my rings are cutting into my fingers and I swear my hips have doubled in size today. I've managed to drink about 3 litres today but hardly done any wee's, so that makes me think I'm retaining it instead. I'm planning on drinking another litre or more tonight, is there anything else I can do? I will be so disappointed if I don't have a good loss on Thursday. Min...
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28 Jun : 14:18
* Day 21 [ Show blog ]
Back in the office today after being in London all last week, so pleased to not be commuting again. Also find it easier to follow LL when I’m in office too no tempting cafes/shops selling gorgeous food. The only down side of being in the office, is the chap I sit next to. He takes great pleasure in trying to wind me up about all the food I’m missing, normally I can ignore him, but today I u...
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26 Jun : 13:22
* Day 20 [ Show blog ]

Tried my wedding dress on this morning and whilst I still couldn't get it on stepping into it, it went over my head and did up better than 3 weeks ago. I still want to loose another stone, and have arranged to go back in 4 weeks time for final fitting.

Going to have a facial today to treat myself and also get my skin looking a bit better. All the vit & minerals in the shakes though and water ...
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25 Jun : 19:34
* Day 19 - [ Show blog ]
Am so angry with myself, after being so good up till Tuesday, I've struggled to stay abstinent. I'm doing ok today but I fear the damage I’ve done, I'm now consumed with guilt and can’t face going to my weigh in at 5.45pm. (went to my weigh in and lost 2.5lbs).

I've got a wedding dress fitting at 9.30 tomorrow, and all I can think about is how much of a disaster it was last time.

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23 Jun : 18:40
Day 17 - oops [ Show blog ]

Wasn't good today, nibbled at lunchtime and had 3 cookies this afternoon. Not going to give myself a hard time as that's the vicious circle I was in before. Will start back again tomorrow and refocus.

Loving the sunshine though xx
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22 Jun : 18:47
* Day 16 - another achievement [ Show blog ]

Up in London on course this week, walked to 25 mins to station and stuck totally to the diet, the gremlins were in my head today trying to tempt myself into having something proteiny, but resisted and distracted myself when the delicious lunch was served up with my ipod and a good book.

Found the trip home incredibly hard though, spent most of the journey having an internal argument. We finished...
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20 Jun : 19:51
* Day 14 - I did it !!! [ Show blog ]
I managed to resist any food and stuck to my milkshake instead, a little help from OH was all I needed to refocus and all was good. Am so pleased with myself, thank you for your messages yesterday.

Been to Mote Park in Kent, and wondered around for a few hours, have caught lots of sun, face is stinging a bit but hope it will go brown by tomorrow.

Am in London all week with work, after today I f...
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19 Jun : 23:24
Day 13 [ Show blog ]

Been to London today to look around Kensal Green cemetery, call me morbid but lots of famous people buried there. Took my shaker and when we stopped for lunch I had my milkshake. Everywhere in London food is a plenty, I don't know whether its because i'm not eating.

Going out for meal tomorrow for Father's Day, am so tempted to have some normal food, once I get to the restaurant I'm going to fi...
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16 Jun : 11:51
Day 10 [ Show blog ]
Meeting with OH went ok, it was like our first date again, which was really strange 3 years down the line. He's moving back in tonight.

Managed to stay abstinent, the only thing passing my lips being a glass of sparkling water, which wasn't a nice as I remember it. As we were at one of the best pubs in the South East, was so tempted to have a meal, particularly when I heard he's been surviving ...
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15 Jun : 18:40
Day 9 [ Show blog ]

Back on track today 100% after 2 days of falling off & lapsing. Done a lot of walking around today and must of consumed at least 3 litres of water. Been going to the loo every 30 mins or so. How do you know if you're drinking enough?

Been on the Wii fit and now having my dinner (mushroom soup). Trying to keep busy otherwise my mind will play tricks on me and I'll start eating contents of ...
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14 Jun : 14:01
Day 8 [ Show blog ]
Thank you so much for your comments on last blog. Felt as though my world fell apart yesterday and honestly thought our wedding was off, but spoke to OH last night and hope to work things out with him. Both taking some time out and plan to meet up and chat at local pub to talk.

I so didn't want to become a bridezilla and thought I could manage the wedding planning but you're right it is a big t...
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14 Jun : 13:59
Day 8 [ Show blog ]
Thank you so much for your comments on last blog. Felt as though my world fell apart yesterday and honestly thought our wedding was off, but spoke to OH last night and hope to work things out with him. Both taking some time out and plan to meet up and chat at local pub to talk.

I so didn't want to become a bridezilla and thought I could manage the wedding planning but you're right it is a big t...
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13 Jun : 20:34
Day 7 - a bit of a blip (food mentioned) [ Show blog ]

Had a massive row with my fiance today, 2 months to our wedding, he's gone to stay with his parents for the night, i think the wedding stress & milkshake stress is getting to me and I've bottled up things without talking to him.

Found it too difficult to fight the impulse to eat and have had a chinese takeaway. Only eaten small bits out of each tray (i got s&s catonese chicken, mushrooms...
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08 Jun : 13:19
Day 2 [ Show blog ]

Finding today tough, still feeling hungry as its early days, but also battling with head hunger too. Watched a film on tv last night, and my usual routine would be to be nibbling something, especially as OH had gone to bed, so I had full reign of kitchen and fridge. Somehow I managed not to give in to temptation.

Work today is boring, not got anything to do, gGood thing I left my purse at home ...
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08 Jun : 13:17
Day 2 [ Show blog ]

Finding today tough, still feeling hungry as its early days, but also battling with head hunger too. Watched a film on tv last night, and my usual routine would be to be nibbling something, especially as OH had gone to bed, so I had full reign of kitchen and fridge. Somehow I managed not to give in to temptation.

Work today is boring, not got anything to do, gGood thing I left my purse at home ...
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07 Jun : 15:09
Day 1 - 82 days to go [ Show blog ]
Have returned to LL after a disastrous wedding dress fitting last Saturday, where the damn thing wouldn’t fit me. I knew it was bad, but it not getting over my hips was mortifying. This was my 3rd fitting, and I had known I had to be good, but it seems I was intent on sabotaging myself. It was a very unpleasant experience but it was the kick up the bum I needed.

Today has been good so far, I...
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